i've moved!!
this is my 300th post!!
wad a big no! lol.
my second time moving only.
n the first time i moved,
i still moved back lo.
so i decided to leave my old add.
although it holds so much so much to me.
and here i'm to my new add!!=)

watched protege.
find it nice personally.
rating: 4out of 5?
haha. tot of rating it myself.
i'm far better than all those magazines.=/

it hurts when u think more.
but its through all the pain.
i learnt. i grew. i changed.
u said u will ammend the situation.
i shall see.

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it sucks big time.
to have flu n sore throat together.
n now with headache.
fcuk man.
cant all the virus leave me alone.
RAHHHHX.
and its very true.
it's harder for someone unhappy to recover.
i juz cant seem to recover.
GET WELL edmund!
u need to work hard for ya midyrs!!
n i went to shop alone today.
saw this berms tt i'm so in love with.
but it was the last piece.
so i made a choice nt to get it.
so sadd.. argh.
Great Singapore Sales.
i would nt miss it out.

the conversation was left hanging in the middle of nowhere.
wad are u up to? if u do nt plan to ameliorate the situation.
dun bother leaving behind false hopes.
i really duno wad i'm exactly up to.
so helpless n lost. tts me now.

Unbreakable -Westlife

i admit.i was rash.
but i thought over.
are the five words so difficult to comprehend?
the ans is NO.
the flip side to the five words is obvious.
obvious to me at least.
he did nt comprehend.
or he did nt bother to comprehend.
the five words tt i cracked my brains over.
he changed.this is definite.
and i changed too.
but juz because of this?
we have to end the friendship?
i couldn't end it at all.
i really suck at this.
made a whole mess out of everything.
there is no point crying over spilt milk.
but tears juz fell uncontrollably.
i'm really a failure.
wad a loser edmund.

went for the west zone camp today.
yepp. had fun.
but only few J2s went back to help.
mainly was me denise ber siyun tommy n sherman for the games.
den ltr got more ppl came back for the nite bahh.
but still rather disappointed.
our help is like redundant lo.-.-
shall stop here.
not continue on it.

nv once i felt so helpless to my own problems.
i feel like shouting everything out loud in ur face.
telling u all the crap u have done.
hais. it doesn't work.
u wun even bother to listen.
forget it. juz leave me to die.

this feeling totally sucks.
cant believe i believed in such a person.
believed tt things will turn out right.
thanks auhnihc.u did it.
u managed to slash me deep in.
and make it bleed non-stop.
wad hurts most?
it's nt when i found out i was such a fool.
it's when i found out u dun even care.
dun even care abt a single thing.
so i'm so indispensable to u.
i felt so cheap man. FCUK.
why muz i be the one calling u.
looking out for this and tt.
so tt's wad friends are for.
i understand now.
it has all along juz being my fault.
FCUK FCUK FCUK FCUK!

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found out i forgot to post something.
Council investiture.
time really FLIES.
now it is time.
for the 26th to step down.
really saw through their period of hard work.
they were gr8!
saw their tears today.
all their hard work.
all reflected.
they really did well.
felt something too.
its real time. for us to all step DOWN.
leave all such stuff to the J1.
n concentrate on As.

guess wad?
i still have nt started on my darn SPA!
rahhhx. went to the doc again.
second time this month.
seems like my dumb throat is no better.
n this time the doc say its worse.
got inflammation n ulcers.
n it hurts like shyt.
i need LIANG CHA!!

wad hurts most is ur reaction.
ur unbothered attitude.
i told myself nt to look.
but i did nt.i'm nt tt rational.
makes myself seem so vulnerable.
i seemed to have lost every reason to smile.
it juz seem tt i couldn't stop.
maybe before the tears start to drop.

i hate it to get so frustrated.
and i cant find someone to vent all these all out.
makes me scold the f word.
but wads the point.
pisses me off.
looks like such a mood will disrupt all my hw plans.
and maybe have to say bye to my TCA4 tmr.

some people are juz ...
cant find the right word to describe.
a combination of so many adjectives.
irresponsible, selfcentered, cocky, and more.
such ppl should be juz obliterated frm the surface of the earth.
think so gr8 of themselves.
if u're so gr8, go and live on ur own in mars la.
wth. cant stand it.
and there are still ppl willing to believe in such ppl.
they are juz plain dolts. asinine ppl.
RAHHHHX.
wake up ur idea!!=/

it will be it tmr.
dun blame me for doin all these.

damn norton.
spoiled my internet explorer.
and now it destroyed my post i juz typed.
pisses me off.
RAHHX><
hate it when my com meets into any prob.
coz i'm illiterate when it comes to all these com stuffs.
makes me mad tts all.
rested my day at home.
hope the week will be better.

i dun really know u.
i dun know how to even approach u.
i'm nt understanding.

sometimes i really wonder.
wads the point of blogging soemtimes.
when i have to worry.
worry for wad?
worry tt some ppl might read the post.
n get the wrong idea.
makes me rather pissed.
it's MY post.
so it muz be subjected to my views.
no one should object to it.
thats the real spirit of blogging.;)
n i wun mean to harm anyone with my blog.
or i juz cant be bothered.

this is so random. ignore it.

我想要说 -蔡昮佑
看着右手被撕裂的伤口
爱好像曾经停留
而我左手按下号码之后
那首属于我的歌不再播送
默写你的爱过
坦承自己脆弱
对白怎么说
表情才不难过
我想要说
如果没有了你
我该如何往下走
那一秒钟有没有发现我
倔强里的问候
怎么劝我放手
在这一切之后
整夜的风冷得我手颤抖
你在温暖的那头
熟悉路口再一次的路过
等在那角落的人已不是我
在这一切

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sports meet.
din wanted to attend it.
was feeling feverish in the morning.
but bo bian.
went sch for spa trial.
so juz stayed for the meet too.
and guess wad.
i went for tug-of-war-.-
n cheered like there's no tmr.
now i'm sunburnt wif a sore throat.
RAHHHX.
i juz get burnt so easily.
my skin macham sensitive to the sun las.

cant stand myself.
wanted to spell things all out.
but one so simple thing changed.
changed everything.
and cant believe i could actually pick up my phone to call.
but its still another disappointment.
wad i cared for was meant to be worthless.
it means so much to me.
but nothing to u.


cant i juz know wad u're trying to do.
i seriously cant decipher.

Happy birthday to edwin!!(asshole!)
this dumb asshole.
tt nv fails to be happy.
all the time.
so stay happy!
u're 18!!;)

my plan seem to have totally failed today.
i cant be happy for long.
i'm getting emo.
drop tt.
i need my sleep.
or else first i will turn into a panda.
and i will fall sick.
n i will look damn ugly.
no, i wun wish for tt.
feverish now.
maybe i should juz hit myself.
faint n i can slp more.

say boo to physics.
faced my notes n stuffs for like hours.
found out nth is going into my brain efficiently now.
all the more i study.
all the more i duno.
seems weird.
but my knowledge is all leaking when i study.
wad a weird comment.
dun feel confident for physics tmr.
nooo. i cant be la.
since i juz did badly for the past tests.
cant expect to be good.

being weighed down with all these thoughts kills.
but there does nt seem to be anyone.
for me to puke all these out.
juz let me die under all of it.
suffocate n die den.
it is tough being happy anyway.
when i'm not deep in.

原来要视若无睹是如此的难。
你说的一切都象过雨云烟。
真不知你是敷衍还是同情我。
只知道你所说的回到从前，
竟然是如此。
如此的残酷。
如此的无情无义。
好一个朋友。
我把你当知己，你把我当?

my mood simply got worse.
i'm simply frustrated.
over my dumb failure.
did nt have any mood to properly revise for the retest.
and guess how was it?
i simply wrote my own story.
whole paper was crap.
but freakingly pissed wif myself aft tt.
forget it. my fault for being stupid.
and found out my nose simply cant stop bleeding.
but i saw myself bleed.
all the blood flowed painlessly.
and for tt instant.
i thought why wun i juz die of such nosebleed?
wad a dumb me.
and i seriously failed to improve my mood.
found it tough to go to school.
needa keep on a good mood.
nt to let ppl worry.
but i simply hate myself.
for being so damn useless.
found out i can die easily w/o my friends.
those tt are so close to me.
but i'm juz so far away now.
so i'm dying.
tired.
unhappy.

ok, i'm emo.

Labels: emo

finally understood something.
i can nv get anymore unhappy.
when i'm alr v unhappy.
tts when all the unhappy stuffs nt gonna affect me.
sorry but i got to post all this.
but no one is obliged to read anyway.
read at ur own will.
wad more to expect when u decide on this.
when u prioritise frienship over relationship.
because u felt this is the best for u.
but edmund, sadly no.
u seemed to have made the wrong choice.
your friends no longer seem so strong a reason.
to hold ur stand.
to divert all ur rubbish thinking.
suddenly everyone juz feel so distant.
so far away.
i reached my hand out.
n i only felt the darkness.
the darkness chilled me to the bones.

Labels: thoughts matters

first of all,
Happy mother's day!!
to my dearest mummy.
tt nv fail to understand me so well.
except all her constant nagging.
which is normal.
u're the best!;)

wasted my whole weekend.
as usual i suppose.
guess i need to really buck up.
but whr is my motivation?
whr is my drive?
guess most of my time,
is juz plain spent on staring.
and letting my thoughts run wild.
COME holidays!!
boo to school.

where are the ppl when i needed them most?
GONE.

Labels: GONE

suddenly. after posting tt.
i thought of something.
i grabbed my phone n stared at it.
hoped for soemone to call me.
din have the feeling to call.
but wanted to talk.
to pour out all this sick stuff.
tt is pissing me off.

but sadly there is no miracle.
unlike before.

Labels: miracle.

very pissed off now.
wonder why some ppl can be so unreasonable.
demand for the impossible.
i hate to be demanded like tt.
makes me hate tt person for it.
and when u cant do it.
they flare at u.
all they think of is their pride.
why cant they think of my perspective?
here i'm trying to help.
and they juz think i'm useless.
wth.
i will not tolerate such stuff.
i voice it right out in ur face.
but wonder is whether u can even find out u're wrong.
pissed me off.

Labels: pissed

went to watch jj match at SBc today.
gals lost.
but felt they played well though.
at least they din really give up.
guys won.
by a close margin.
but definitely a match worth watching.
hope they could get into the top4.

prays hard tt my big ulcer faster return to normal!!=/

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ouch!
my ulcers n sore throat deadly combi.
makes me dun even feel like talking le.
but now is like hurting loads.
nvm. shant care much.
it is nt goin to affect me! rahhhx.

ri jiu jian ren xin.

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kinda amazed by my own sixth sense.
jus sensed the guy will get caught for his blog.
n he did got caught.
omg. makes me scared to blog these days.
haha. sounds like blogging wrong stuff may become a crime one day.
den why for blog?LOL.
but i have to say he may be too extreme in his stand.
nevertheless hope him the best lo.

ok. maths test is a sure flop.
i cant even get simple things right.
forget it.
i juz cant recover well from this sore throat of mine.
RAHHHX.
shall go sleep soon.

people come and go.
some may stay.
but some may leave.
will u be the one staying forever?

Taken frm jiamin's blog:
you are only making life harder for yourself to please people who dont appreciate.
come to think of it, i kind of agree.
and it was disappointing to think you are trying so hard to squeeze some time out for them but yet they dont even bother.
they told you they understand but they dont.
god knows the kind of feelings you will get.
and how helpless you feel everyday and hang yourself in a struggle.
unless they got a taste of it.
of course, when this happen, there sure will be rebuttals.
yet when you need someone dearly, they wont be the ones standing by you.
things have changed.
now or never.

makes me agree so much to it.
even completely i could say.
everything in it fits to me.
except i may have more to add.

Maths test tmr.
so sure i gonna die.
nt understanding the two topics well.
n my tutor hinted the test would be tough.
hope i still can make it.
but why am i nt studying?
i need to do my load of hw duhh.
and went for my cousin's b'day.
haha. juz imagine all the fun.LOL.
when cousins get tog.
we take pictures. n loads.
macham like our bday.
haha. FUN!

maybe its nt things changed. we changed. you changed.

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hmm. wad to do when u have a sorethroat?
rahhx. cant even speak properly.
zzz. cant eat all the food.
i now seem to hate to eat.
cant even eat properly.
and oh my. all i can eat is all the plain stuffs.
RAHHH!
heal throat!!
i need herbal tea.. hahas.

Labels: herbal tea

SPA is over. edmund is over too.
lol. down n out.
juz woke up frm my long nap.
yawn. first time so long i get such quality slp.
juz becoz of the med i ate ba.
so i slpt soundly.
but now. i woke up.
rahh. my throat hurts alot lo.
hungry but cant eat.
tts a torture.
herbal tea!! ><
none for me now.
anyone get it for me tmr? hahas.

wad matters most when u're sick is to have friends tt show u their care n concern.
it comes to realise how much u rly mattered to them.
for those tt did nt.
u could only choose to take it as they forgotten.
or they maybe did nt really bother.

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S for SPA! S for SICK!
zzz. ok. i now have a more sexy voice.
kena sore throat.
expected from my two days of no slp.
somemore today rainy day. grrr.
cold like some winter la.
i used like loads n loads of tissue for the day.
n din see the three kids today.
kinda glad. lol.
or else they may juz kena all my cute viruses.
shall go back to my irritating SPA.
ARGHH.
juz cant make all sense of it into my tiny brain.
RAHHHHHHX.

Labels: S

labour day post.
spent my labour day out of home.
cant believe how would i do if i'm supposed to stay all day at home.
i still love the air outside.
你就是我的天使
保护著我的天使
从此我再没有忧伤
你就是我的天使
给我快乐的天使
甚至我学会了飞翔
飞过人间的无常
才懂爱才是宝藏
不管世界变得怎黱样
只要有你就会是天堂
像孩子依赖著肩膀
像眼泪依赖著脸庞
你就像天使一样
给我依赖给我力量
像诗人依赖著月亮
像海豚依赖海洋
你是天使你是天使
你是我最初和最后的天堂
the very song i listened to when i typed this post.
cant imagine there would be this ydobysub beside me now.
rahh. guess how i'm feeling now. zzz.

bleh. look at me now.
dark dark rings wif my eyebags.
ARGH.
juz w/o tt one day of slp.
landed me in such form.
guess i am soo panda now.
loss of sleep is bad for health.
wad a sleepless nite.

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