Monday, October 20, 2008
ok. guess this is so crappy. Labels: changed
i'm too tired that i cant even fall asleep alr.
i have stretched over my limit that now i cant sleep.
and now i've gotta blog about some stuffs on mind.
been thinking thru many things just this few days.
cuz so much have happened,
it makes me come to realise that many things can never be the same.
but all i can hope is for what's gonna come to be better.
that day was talking to jieying alot alot.
and many of our focus fell on change.
how much have we exactly changed since we left jc.
i found out that the only constant became change.
how ironic. i hate changes.
but guess there was not much of a choice for me anyway.
i became so different so changed.
looking around, i realised much more.
my daddy has really aged.
he look so much different now,
with much lesser hair, an older look.
my mummy is still always there to nag.
but she still does everything perfectly,
thou with lesser energy due to age.
but they are always there for me.
my daddy always there to pick me home.
my mummy helping me to remb stuffs i can forget.
even when i'm unhappy,
they can know no matter how hard i try to hide,
or how good i can be at hiding it.
esp mummy, she knows it.
she knows i may not want to say,
but she will always try her best to make me smile,
and take away the dark clouds looming over me.
now i know why my daddy always insist on meals together.
so that we bond as a family,
the ties we share can never be created nor destroyed nor changed.=)
looking back to myself, i see the change.
but one thing, i'm still a very tough person to please.
and no matter what, i'm still glad to have these groups of ppl around me.
Trio always around since j1, and going on till the end of the eternity.
yes, i can be so demanding on edwin at times.
but he is so great, beyond words i guess.
there for me all the times.
and i still remb the time when he made some liangteh.
makes me laugh n totally speechless.
the only weird thing is that we now can even meet proper.
makes me really irritated i presume.
my friend since primary school, denise.
so much has passed n we're still in so close contact.
guess this will be it for life alr=/
not forgetting yueqi,
the perfect person that's always there to listen.
make me laugh at her retarded nonsense.
n letting me be part of her retarded life=/
nic tan, my little brother aka di.
he is really awesome.
i have no idea how we can be so close.
so the only explantion is that we're to be brothers for life!
and back to now, there's like the one part of k9.
that's so like fantastic to me.
so many people.
always there for fun and laughter.
and there are always people to understand you.
all these make me so unwilling to let go of what i have now.
thou i made a pass on all the undesirable stuffs now.
but i realised i should learn to let go of some thoughts.
so now i'm not oblivion to what's happening arnd,
but just trying to live happily i suppose.
take away my fears.
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