went out wif pig siew n tan ytd.
yepp. they made me so mad.
i waited freaking long for them.
n WHERE IS the CARD U TWO PROMISED!?
lol. but i still could nt hold the anger long.
lost out to them in quite a short while.
n we went on some eating journey.
ate Haagen n NYNY. super sinful.
haha. then these two retards.
they wanted to treat me.
but still din bring enuf money-.-
in the end i paid for my dinner. LOL.
hmm. but we forgot to take pictures!! haha.
then went to join my class awhile before heading home.


if i could juz let go of some thoughts, i would be living happier.
but i seriously wonder where i got the strong reluctance to let go.

Labels: SINFUL

particularly in a bad mood for the day.
sorry to those tt i ignored.
sorry to those tt tolerated.
i believe i've a strong character.
i take alot of things on a much lighter note.
but similar to a rubber band,
i've got a limit.
overstretch n thats it.
i'm seriously unhappy wif my results.
be it tt some ppl really think its gd enuf.
but who would always look whos below?
we should always be looking at whos above.
so i dun think i did well for prelims.
and i made loads of effort to really revise.
but it does nt seem to have a good tradeoff.
i still gt sucky results.
guessed i nv really stressed myself tt much over results.

when i felt tt i alr lost someone.
i thot i could concentrate on studies.
do well, prove it to him.
it's nth to me man.
i can still continue to study n excel.
i studied. but did nt do well.
all this sounds so childish.
but tt was all that really pushed me forward.
i felt tt i still could nt face up to reality.
but deep down, i hoped u did better.

Labels: emo

disastrous day.
results flooded back.
phy chem n math ppr1.
all disappointed.
did nt do well up to expectations.
Ms Goh: why did ur A become a B?!
i felt damn guilty.
no offence to others.
but i seriously fell below expectations.
sounds serious.
this is the penultimate alr.
n i'm still scoring such grades.
a serious call for worries.

ok. town-ed today.
got myself a crumpler.
know it sounds pretty mad to get one now.
but my bag seriously dying on me.
n i need one to last.
cuz i dun rly love to shop for bags.
so i got myslef a crumpler.
n now i seriously find it pretty BIG.
haha. sounds damn retail therapy?
still ate at fish n co.
spending money makes u happy.
but it temp.
cuz now i have to worry for $$.
prom coming liaos.
time to save again=/

Labels: demoralised

the papers were juz a disaster.
mcq today. as usual.
found out praying hard maybe works better than studying hard.
mcq sounds so luck-based to me now.
tmr shall end all the pprs.
but nt the suffering.
the real suffering comes when the results come back.
i dun feel like going back to sch.

when u duno wad to study,
sounds so much like an irony.
i really have no idea.
revised n revised.
but i seriously duno wad i duno.
but i still cant do my papers.
wad a failure.


The most I can do for my friend is simply to be his friend. I have no wealth to bestow on him. If he knows that I am happy in loving him, he will want no other reward. Is not friendship divine in this?
Henry David Thoreau

how many are true like this? sounds so much like a fairytale to me now.

Labels: fairytale

i really wonder.
who r the true frens around.

hais.big sighs.
dun ask me how was prelims.
one sentence. sucks totally.
when u spent effort, time. loads of it.
and u still cant do it. u feel helpless.
jc is nt abt effort. nor intelligence.
it is multicausal, u need more than wad it takes to survive.
the combination of all. kills.
i have no idea wad it takes to really do well.
guess i suck simply.
anw. i was simply badly thrashed for prelims.
simply dun expect much this time.
i was confident. but no more.
it was all taken away.


reflect upon wad u have done in jc.
haha. my life in jc was a joke.
all the mad studying.
all the times spent wif my notes.
but they dun seem to turn out well.
forget abt results now.
i even failed in other aspects.
nt to mention i have to avoid.
avoid avoid n avoid.
wad else can i do.

Labels: useless me

spent the whole of my ytd in the lib.
den went off to my cousin's hse at nite.
lol. loads of dumb stuffs happened.
all the dumb laughing.
den the commotion wif the cat coming into the hse.
the cat was juz hungry.=/
instead of really studying.
i was learning some magic tricks there la.
felt damn proud of myself to be able to trick ppl.
lol. ok back to my studying.
shall catch up on prelims!!

Prelims: 3 Edmund: 1. pathetic score.

Labels: bored me

ok. finally!! Prelims: 3 Edmund: 1!!
finally one paper i think can de.
chem paper3 today.
dun think the paper was v difficult.
at the optimum standard bahh.
i could the qn. but no time to finish.
like near 10 marks flew to lack of time.
hope can do well.
but this paper boosted my morale.=))

ok. shall go to slp liaos.
need to go lib tmr.=/ tada~!

Labels: get outta my sight

i guess everybody muz be studying frantically studying now or sleeping alr.
n i'm here blogging=/ feeling nt so guilty=/
find myself rather confident for my chem exam tmr.
anw chem is my best subj.
i ought to feel confident.
but i gt scared of my confidence.
will i do well?! i know the facts.=/
i juz have to pray hard i make less of the dumb mistakes i usually make.
i can do it de.=)
anw i lived up to my name.
my camper actually said i'm the MOST slack senior she ever seen.
OMG. GG. felt sad.
but true enuf la. i'm SLACK><
ok. shall end here. all the best for tmr=)

Labels: prelimsblues

Overcome the Thousands of Nights Vocals: Aqua Timez

I want to be loved, but you don’t seem to love me
I wander within that repetition
I found one answer; that even if I’m scared, even if I’m hurt
I can say “I love you” to the person who I love

Do you love me? Or not love me?
As for things like that, it’s already fine either way
No matter how I wish
There are many unchangeable things in this world, right?
That’s right, and because only the fact of my loving you
Is the truth unchangeable by anyone

I want to overcome the thousands of nights and tell it to you
There is something that I must tell you
I want to be loved, but you don’t seem to love me
I wander within that repetition
I found one answer; that even if I’m scared
Even if I’m hurt, I can say “I love you” to the person who I love
It’s scary to turn my feelings into words
But I can say “I love you” to the person who I love

In this broad world, I can’t express the joy of encountering you with words
So we smile, sing about the vividly passing autumn in do-re-mi
Turn our backs on winter, wait for the sunlight streaming through trees in spring
And become reborn anew, so that we can protect someone

On the path we came from and our destination, when we looked back, I’d always have timid eyes
I want to face you, but I can’t be honest
I, who repeated days of not being able to straightforwardly love my partner
And hated being alone on that day
Seemed to love people while unwounded

I’ll overcome the thousands of nights and go meet you now
There is something that I must tell you
I want to be loved, but you don’t seem to love me
I wander within that repetition
I found one answer; that even if I’m scared
Even if I’m hurt, I can say “I love you” to the person who I love
Even if those thoughts aren’t fulfilled, I can say “I love you” to the person who I love
It’s the most wonderful thing in this world














Bleach movie!! damn nice song i muz say.
the movie was fairly good.
they attempted to incoporate quite alot of characters n action.
can say i enjoyed myself.=)

and now its prelims: 3!! edmund: 0 =((

Labels: overcome the thousands of nights

edmund: 0 Prelims: 1
one paper down.
or is it one paper gone.
gp paper over, prelims won.
i think this time sure will tio thrash.
gp is seemingly tough.
dun think can do well easily.
think the end score sure prelims: X edmund: 0
GG. studied my econs alr.
hope i can retain the facts till tmr.
n there better be a qn i can attempt.=/
tada~!

Fine. since i've neglected my blog for quite awhile.
shall do this quiz to relive my stress-.-
it may nt rly help though. shall see.


1. person who tagged me:Alford yu

2.my relationship with him:tution mates

3 my 5 impressions of him: i cant remb!!>< juz jk la. he is a comic guy, loves his gundam stuffs, great person to play pool wif, friendly, damn crappy=)

4. most memorable thing that he had done for me:he lent me his sleeping bag!! or else i may have died in the cold tt time!

5. most memorable words that he said to me: wad am i supposed to fill in? hmm. forget it.

6. if he becomes my lover, i will?:i might faint first.

7. if he is my lover, he has to improve on:LOVER?! nah. nth he can improve on to be my lover.=/he will nv be><

8. if he becomes my enemy, i will: avoid him? negotiate peace? i'm peace loving!!=)hahaas.

9. if he becomes my enemy, the reason is:i wun make him my enemy.

10. the thing that i desire most to do for him now is:hmm. tts a secret. shall nt say!

11. my overall impression of him:smart

12. how do i think people around me will feel about me?:ask them luhh.how would i know. haha.

13. the character i love about myself is:encourage ppl to move on.=)

14. on the contrary, what character i hate about myself:my inborn evil traits?! haha. duno lehh.

15. the most ideal person i would like to be:confident, smart, eloquent.

16. a message to those around me and those who care for me:hmm. shouldn't most of u be studying for ya exams?! haha. smile always=)

17. pass this quiz to

1. Nicholas tan!
2. zhang yue qi
3. zhi jie
4. Denise
5. Jit Hin.
6. Ah Meng aka jiameng
7. Su wen!(Siao)
8. Kai Ngee
9. Gaelan
10. Desmond Chua

Is no. 9 a male/female? Male

If no. 1 and no. 10 be together, is it a good thing? ?!OMG.

How about no. 3 and 4? i can just kill myself.=/it wun happen.

What is no. 2 studying about? retard improvement course? ahhaha.

Last time i chatted with no. 3? three days ago.

What kind of music does no. 8 like? Pop la. or OLDIES><

No. 6 have any siblings? yupp! confirm=)

How about no. 7? ya la!

Is no. 4 single? hmm. yepp. lol.=/

Surname of no. 5? TAN

Hobby of no. 5? this one i'm sure! DOTA.-.-

Where's no. 3 studying at? PJC!

Have you tried developing feelings for no. 8? LIKE NEVER!

Where does no. 9 live? boon lay?

What colour does no. 4 like? black.

Does no. 7 like no. 2? HAHA!! tt will be the r/s of the century. a retard wif another.=p

How do you know no. 2? same sec school? tution. its nt impt=/ i bet she does nt remb as well.

No. 5 have a pet? dun think so. he dun look like he will have a pet. haha.



FINALLY DONE!!=) shall go back to my studying!=)

Labels: quiz

woo. i finished my show alr!!
fang yang de xing xing aka my lucky star.
superb show i can say.
nice plot n storyline.
exceptionally touching bits in the show.
should nt miss!!
chiong-ed this show for the past two days.
n i finished all 20 episodes=)
felt a sense of accomplishment.
ok. i need to study for my prelims.
no more shows=/
shall go have a good slp.
there is more up tmr=) tada~!!



hen, zhi hui gen rong yi ji yi ge ren.

Labels: my lucky star

hais. physics mock was a pratical disaster.
i almost gave up doing the paper man.
could nt do many stuffs.
n as usual i made many dumb mistakes.
but i did nt fail myself tt badly.
got myself a B. but i know i'm nt prepared.
for the prelims n As. i muz work more.
n i got home. started watching show.
LOL. now watching fang yang de xing xing aka my lucky star.
a super nice show;)
kinda like the actors.




ohh. nt forgetting,
PEOPLE!! ASK ME OUT TO KBOX!!
i have nt been there for ages.
n i needa sing my lungs out to de-stress.

Labels: KBOX

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