loveorbreak

2008-12-13T22:18:00.003+08:00

QOQ. Me, JieYing, JitHin

QOQ. people that went.

Me n JieYing;)

Me n JitHin=p

Me, Jonah, Jieying at Shokudo, Heeren

Found out that my updates are real declining.
seems like i really lost interest in blogging.
let my pictures do the talking bahh.

2008-12-04T17:39:00.002+08:00

u may never know, things in life can be so unpredictable.
some people may be so near to u daily.
but they are never that close to ur heart.
but some u may not have met for quite some time.
n they are still capable of touching ur heart.
sounds damn ironic to me.
i always believed that u have to maintain,
no matter how great friends u can be.
u need to know how to keep up with the friendship.
but, there are really exceptions i suppose.
cuz i seen n experienced it.

2008-12-02T23:59:00.002+08:00

ok. december is here.
omg. never ever did i realise that the year passed so fast.
it just seemed like i just in army only.
BUT, army is LONG n TIRING can.
fine drop all the nonsense bout that.
i'm broke!!
means; no money for christmas!!
n no money to go out!!
cant payday come earlier..=/
oh well, think i'm on a new savings plan now!

2008-11-29T22:47:00.002+08:00

oh my. my blog is like moving on to the rotting state.
i've got little energy to type out what's happening.
or maybe i should say i've no idea what's happening.
i lost my gift in communication.
finding it hard to communicate.
with anyone, even reasoning with myself.
i don't know what's going on.
but i definitely know i'm exhausted already.
feeling like a complete idiot typing this.

2008-11-26T21:56:00.002+08:00

Wedding dinner;)
a totally new experience.
photos up!=D

the seven of us. 4plus3=D.

the usual 4 of us.

Still the 4 of us=/

Without xiaopang.=(

Me n my emcee partner=D

JAYSON!!^^

WOW-ed on stage! haha.

The process..

Before!=)

2008-11-22T22:47:00.001+08:00

i'm just so tired n sick of everything now.
how can all these leave me alone?
why cant i deserve better?
oh freak it.

u nv care.
u nv bother.
it's just like b4.

2008-11-16T23:05:00.002+08:00

Vertical Marathon 2008
totally new n exciting experience.
new underestimate the 73storeys.
they said its just 200++ m up.
n 1336 steps sound like nth to u..
BUT BUT it is!!
i spent 16 min trying to get myself up the building.
proud of my achievement=D
photos another day.=/
tired alr. LOL.
i'm a Staircase Climber!

2008-11-13T22:37:00.003+08:00

ORD dinner for the nov/dec batch.
was held at ecp, a korean bbq restaurant.
the dinner was quite last min.
and rather unfortunate for me.
but i still made it after some last min considerations.
n the food was quite nice.
except that i missed the side dishes.
nv knew that those were free flow=/
n thanks for the treat from the ord peeps.
or else i guess i wun afford to go there.
plus its so far for me to go there to eat alr.
haha. totally enjoyable. ;)
how can we forget the ORD people! ORD LO!

2008-11-13T22:29:00.002+08:00

ooops. i've been at home for 2days alr.
totally cooping myself at home.
anw MC cant anyhow run also.
i dun wanna end up in DB><
n i just realised something.
i forgot to take a picture of my bloody hand.
no pun intended.=/
fine, i should have done so!
then it could be much of a reminder for me.
tell me to be more careful in future.
my thumb now is much better i guess.
but cant really do much with it.
cuz it hurts to use strength with my thumb.
and my right thumb is so impt to me!
fine, guess have to learn to live w/o it for now..
n i hate accidents, now my plans are foiled.
i cant get to go shopping for clothes.
n guess i may not have enough time for now.
lucky lucky i next week shld be quite free..
but must re-plan all my plans.
totally sianzzz.

2008-11-12T00:00:00.002+08:00

my hand is scarred now.
totally unlucky, dog bite.
on my right hand somemore.
plus it's making my whole hand ache.
plus i can use my thumb much.
zzz. suay to the max can=/
shall stop here, cant type much anw.
more to be updated=)

2008-11-10T23:08:00.001+08:00

ME AND MY COUSINS=D

2008-11-05T20:47:00.002+08:00

i really want things to return to the moment i said no.
cuz i'm really full of regrets now.
n there's nth i can do, nth i can turn back to.
this is just my fault, for being so dumb.
regrets n regrets.

2008-11-01T23:34:00.000+08:00

MY BLOG IS 3YEARS OLD! =D

2008-10-30T22:11:00.002+08:00

my extended family feels so complicated.
all of a sudden.
so much of complications.
or rather many guesses, i would say.
nth is pretty much confirmed.
but it feels so scary all of a sudden.
to see how sinister the human can be.
and everything unfolds amazingly.
at times i feel so much like i'm in a drama.
like those HongKong kind..
hope everything turns out fine.

my blog is walking into his 3rd year alr.
cant believe its still here n going for so long.
n moving into 600 entries.
no matter the happy ones or the emo ones.
all these are my fantastic memories.

decided upon removing the damn emo entry.
or rather make it private i suppose.
found no point in posting it.
cuz there's no such problem now.
or maybe i shld say no feelings anymore.
so i'm more carefree.

2008-10-29T21:49:00.002+08:00

oh great. i'm falling sick.
this is bad. damn bad.
i cant get to sleep despite my fatigue.
n the headache is really killing me.
ok. it just sucks to be sick i guess.

2008-10-27T14:44:00.000+08:00

this is how sad i'm now.=(

2008-10-27T12:58:00.000+08:00

MY HAIR IS SO SCREWED UP!
I'M IN DEPRESSION NOW=(

2008-10-26T23:23:00.002+08:00

such a blast.
things are so unpredictable.
they come so unknowingly.
sometimes i just have no idea how to react.
lesson learned;
cherish ur family n never neglect ur health.

stop me from thinking further.
cuz i still nid u as a fren.

2008-10-25T23:39:00.000+08:00

Lets101 Quizzes - blog quizzes

decided to copy this.
true for me to a large extent.
cant believe it myself.

2008-10-25T17:40:00.002+08:00

宅男
this is what i've been doing.
many reasons why i'm doing so.
first, people pangseh me=(
so i'm just unfortunate to go out i guess.
next, i guess i'm very broke alr.
so no point in going out so much.
i needa save up for my own sake.=/
furthermore, i wanted to spend some time with my family.
my family is so impt to me.
so in conclusion,
i still feel that i'm here consoling myself for staying home.=|

i'm still trying to feel my significance.
without making comparisons.
cause this feels awful.
n i don't know how much more of it can i take.

2008-10-23T21:45:00.002+08:00

guess i just wasted money today.
watched tropic thunder at cathay.
people that attended;
Me.
Jia Yun.
Benjamin.
Geraint.
Kenny.
Bay.
Shi Hao.
Leon.
Dominic.

the show was a disappointment for me at least.
totally lame and not that funny.
thou there are parts that u can really laugh hard at.
there's still parts where u catch no ball or stun.
storyline is totally lame-ed.
back to what i can say,
this show is just a retarded n lame show bout people getting lost in a forest.
haha. really not worth any recommendation.
1*/5* from edmund!
a waste of money.=/

2008-10-20T20:34:00.002+08:00

things tend to strike u when u least expect it.
i thought i've got nth much in mind to buy.
but just now, i realised i was wrong.=/
here's my wish list!
1. i want a nice hoodie jumper!=D
2. new wallet!
3. new watch=/ [has been wishing for this for ages..]
4. i nv think belts can suffice.
5. new pair of jeans.
6. vest. [just being vain..]
7. my timbuk2 dream has yet to come true..
8. nice pair of new shades^^
9. new pair of sneakers i recently saw at converse!
10. guess if i'm gonna continue the list never ends.. haha.

i'm really bored.=/

2008-10-20T15:30:00.002+08:00

ok. guess this is so crappy.
i'm too tired that i cant even fall asleep alr.
i have stretched over my limit that now i cant sleep.
and now i've gotta blog about some stuffs on mind.
been thinking thru many things just this few days.
cuz so much have happened,
it makes me come to realise that many things can never be the same.
but all i can hope is for what's gonna come to be better.

that day was talking to jieying alot alot.
and many of our focus fell on change.
how much have we exactly changed since we left jc.
i found out that the only constant became change.
how ironic. i hate changes.
but guess there was not much of a choice for me anyway.
i became so different so changed.
looking around, i realised much more.

my daddy has really aged.
he look so much different now,
with much lesser hair, an older look.
my mummy is still always there to nag.
but she still does everything perfectly,
thou with lesser energy due to age.
but they are always there for me.
my daddy always there to pick me home.
my mummy helping me to remb stuffs i can forget.
even when i'm unhappy,
they can know no matter how hard i try to hide,
or how good i can be at hiding it.
esp mummy, she knows it.
she knows i may not want to say,
but she will always try her best to make me smile,
and take away the dark clouds looming over me.
now i know why my daddy always insist on meals together.
so that we bond as a family,
the ties we share can never be created nor destroyed nor changed.=)

looking back to myself, i see the change.
but one thing, i'm still a very tough person to please.
and no matter what, i'm still glad to have these groups of ppl around me.
Trio always around since j1, and going on till the end of the eternity.
yes, i can be so demanding on edwin at times.
but he is so great, beyond words i guess.
there for me all the times.
and i still remb the time when he made some liangteh.
makes me laugh n totally speechless.
the only weird thing is that we now can even meet proper.
makes me really irritated i presume.
my friend since primary school, denise.
so much has passed n we're still in so close contact.
guess this will be it for life alr=/
not forgetting yueqi,
the perfect person that's always there to listen.
make me laugh at her retarded nonsense.
n letting me be part of her retarded life=/
nic tan, my little brother aka di.
he is really awesome.
i have no idea how we can be so close.
so the only explantion is that we're to be brothers for life!
and back to now, there's like the one part of k9.
that's so like fantastic to me.
so many people.
always there for fun and laughter.
and there are always people to understand you.
all these make me so unwilling to let go of what i have now.
thou i made a pass on all the undesirable stuffs now.
but i realised i should learn to let go of some thoughts.
so now i'm not oblivion to what's happening arnd,
but just trying to live happily i suppose.

take away my fears.

2008-10-16T23:28:00.001+08:00

i feel so much like a different person.
suddenly i feel so changed.
but not for the better.

~~the only constant is change~~

2008-10-16T21:46:00.002+08:00

oops. looks like it has been half a month since i posted anything.
my com has juz been attacked by this @$$%231## VIRUS.
so vexing for me since i'm a 10% computer idiot.
but help came eventually, sent it for repair!
so its finally back up! FINALLY!
finally i can stay at home with the company of my com.
and not rot aimlessly.=/
yepp. true that i've quite a fair bit of things to post about.
but heck all those.
cuz i'm just to lazy to do a recount.
let me add some movie reviews;

Painted Skin.
a classic chinese epic. storyline mesmerizing.
however the background music can be retarded.
total misfit to this nice epic i presume.
actors are not the most suitable.
but enjoyed the show i guess.
worth a watch, can laugh at the retarded bg music.
a 2.5*/5* for me!

House Bunny.
a total 100% bimbo comedy.
leaves much to be said until u watched it.
but i feel that it is really funny.
with many retarded n super bimbo bits.
nth much for story as it is predictable.
worth watching if u're wanting to laugh badly.
a 3*/5* for me!

Eagle Eye.
an eye-opener for me i guess.
did not expect much from this at first.
but was totally shocked.
the show is really not bad.
except the ending, which i felt that could be better.
the storyline can be seen as boring,
but i personally felt that it is ok.
so i must say, watch this if u can.
a 3.5*/5* for me!

after review all the movies i watched recently,
i noticed a weird trend in my ratings.
they increase by 0.5* per movie!
LOL. guess i'm really dumb to say this.

life did not improve much i suppose.
everyday is really hectic.really busy.
things has taken a turn for the slight better for me.
yes, it became better.
cuz i made my effort to solve the problems that are worth my effort.
and i decided to leave and heck all those that are not within me to solve.
thou i know, i might still be mindful of those.
but there's really too little i can do for now.
other than just leaving it to time to decide i suppose.
not to forget the people that stood side by side with me!
a really big thank you.
u all know how u are i guess.
very glad to have u people there.
or else i have no idea how to move on.

2008-10-01T15:13:00.002+08:00

yes, feeling lousy, really lousy.
cuz u did not give a shyt.
u did not bother.
u did not care.
what more can i say.
so much for being friends huhh.
i guess only i would be so bothered.
he is alr leading his life better now?!
i cant stop thinking.
cant stop pondering over things.
cant stop thinking over the infinite possibilities.
cuz i hate the blatant truth in front of me.
i hate what i feel now.
~~u're acting as if nothing freaking happened.~~

2008-09-30T19:01:00.002+08:00

*ALERT*
this is going to be a very long long long entry i presume.

Life recently has been so regimental,
being on duty, burning my weekends, screwing my body clock.
all this all that has made me so dead.
practically so like a zombie, repeatedly doing the same stuffs.
all this is like my routine,
so much that i became truly ignorant to many things.
the only constant that is true is change.
everything is subjective to many changes.
i've alr spent my ninth month in ns.
so many things are different.
the girls like yueqi are all in uni alr.
working forth towards their future.
denise is also doing well in her poly i suppose.
most of my jc mates are in ns alr,
majority trying our best to reach the ORD date..
thats for now i suppose,
but as for me, i have been moving backwards most of the time.
especially with my friends.
now i really just feel like isolating myself,
keep myself home till i ORD.
my schedule screws me up badly.
i either find myself too occupied with duties, or just too tired after duties.
i cant even pick up my energy to do anything else.
meet-ups become so difficult on my part.
sometimes i have the heart to do it, but lack the energy.
at times i have the energy, but just mentally tired alr..
at times i just decide to relax, wait to be called out instead.
but often i'm disappointed.
timings i suppose, makes me feel left out.
but more often than not, it's not the case.
yes, they still do care i suppose.
but just too busy at that timing to care.
but heck that, i cant think properly to continue the post now.
postpone this for the next time man.
guess edwin does make a difference.
he is indeed an important buddy.
someone i cant lose. my heart lost me.
i am just too soft hearted.
and too hard on the outside.
i feel really lousy.

2008-09-25T22:48:00.002+08:00

i have never realized.
i never considered such a possibility.
my mentality has changed.
i have become far more sensitive.
towards many things, esp friendship.
i sat down and think it through,
yes, i am a tough friend to have.
yes, i am unreasonable.
yes, i am demanding.
but, i felt right, cuz this is what i need.
i need a friend that can be there for me.
not only during hard times,
but to share my happy times too.
And i must be there for him at all times.
of cuz must know me well too.
yah, i made it sound like being best of friends is tough.
that's why there's only few.

guess i'm plain unlucky.
i thought we might be great friends.
but i ended up mocking myself.
for having such foolish thoughts.
cuz u showed me how foolish i was.
thanks for being there to 'niao' me.

2008-09-23T19:06:00.002+08:00

MIRRORS
caught this movie with JiaYun and Kenny today.
no spoilers here! so just read on!
this movie has really freaky n gross scenes can.
kenny was half buried in his hands can=/
but overall the movie has a cool storyline.
the usage of an everyday item; mirrors.
can really reach for the fear in people,
even after the show ended.
cuz people can be easily reminded of scenes in the show,
when they look into the mirror!!
overall i was rather satisfied watching the show.
heck the part that i felt it could be scarier.
that would make the movie very thai-like..
i rate it a 3*/5*!
watch it if u want a horror movie!=D

2008-09-18T19:16:00.006+08:00

seems like quite awhile since i seriously updated much stuffs.
shall take this chance to do some updates then=)
recently life is just revolving arnd k9 ppl i guess.

first of all,
temasek club outing on 12th sept.
people that went:
many many luhh.
i cant really remb all at the moment alr.
this seems to be my first temasek outing,
but sadly it seems to be the last alr lo.=/
but nevertheless it was really enjoyable.
think dominic may get the card from his dad,
for future possible outings..
there is karaoke pool and mahjong ongoing.
i did not sing, went pool awhile..
den most of my time was mahjong!
stayed there all the way till 2plus luhh.
den shared cab with leon, SK and bay home lo.

den second i think worth mention was ytd.
dominic's birthday!
this little boy that is like younger than me.
but more senior in k9 luhh.
he is the first lao jiao that i'm so close to.
so he is like so nigger and nonsense at times,
but he is always there when u need a listening ear.
so we had our celebration at crystal jade.
for dominic's fav; Xiao Long Bao!
thou i love it loads too!
den also bought him a cake too for the mini celebration.
before that was hanging out at geraint's house.
for intensive gaming lo=p
after that we bought tubs of ice cream for dessert.
and back to geraint's balcony to chill lo.
ended up chatting till 12 like that before leaving lo.
made me superbly tired today=(
people that came along;
Me.
Dominic!
Kenny.
Leon.
Samuel.
Edwin.
Geraint.
Timothy.
Benjamin.

ohh. not to forget, my outing with nic tan the pig!
my long awaited birthday outing.
since duno how many donkey years ago.
had my psp back finally i suppose.
and also got me a shirt.=/
and we dined at my fav! NYNY!
totally loves it!

2008-09-18T19:16:00.002+08:00

Babylon A.D.
watched this way back at plaza singapura.
the people that came along for this movie:
Me.
Kenny.
Jia Yun.
Cheung Jie.
this movie was a total disappointment for me.
alot of things were left unexplained.
the ending was like wth.
cant be really bothered to talk much about it i guess.
not worth much of my time.=/
a 1*/5* from edmund i guess.
not worth the watch.
but if u're curious, maybe get the dvd or what i suppose.

2008-09-14T13:38:00.000+08:00

DavidBissonette

When a man steals your wife, there is no better revenge than to let him keep her.

Sacha Guitry

After marriage, husband and wife become two sides of a coin; they just can't face each other, but still they stay together.

By all means marry. If you get a good wife, you'll be happy. If you get a bad one, you'll become a philosopher. Socrates

Woman inspires us to great things, and prevents us from achieving them.

Dumas

The great question... which I have not been able to answer... is, 'What does a woman want?

Sigmund Freud

I had some words with my wife, and she had some paragraphs with me.

Anonymous

'Some people ask the secret of our long marriage. We take time to go to a restaurant two times a week. A little candlelight, dinner, soft music and dancing. She goes Tuesdays, I go Fridays.'

Sam Kinison

'There's a way of transferring funds that is even faster than electronic banking. It's called marriage.'

James Holt McGavran

'I've had bad luck with both my wives. The first one left me, and the second one didn't.'

Patrick Murray

Two secrets to keep your marriage brimming
1. Whenever you're wrong, admit it,
2. Whenever you're right, shut up.

Nash

The most effective way to remember your wife's birthday is to forget it once...

Anonymous

You know what I did before I married? Anything I wanted to.

Henny Youngman

My wife and I were happy for twenty years. Then we met.

Rodney Dangerfield

A good wife always forgives her husband when she's wrong.

Anonymous

A man inserted an 'ad' in the classifieds: 'Wife wanted'. Next day he received a hundred letters. They all said the same thing: 'You can have mine.'

Anonymous

First Guy (proudly): 'My wife's an angel!'
Second Guy: 'You're lucky, mine's still alive.'

2008-09-11T23:50:00.002+08:00

WALL-E
think it has been just too long since i watched this to update.
watched this at cathay with:
Wei Long
Kenny
Timothy
it was such a long time ago affair but i still remb to blog abit bout this!
guess this movie is indeed worth my time to do so i guess..
time for the review!
this show is great, not boring like a cartoon.
thou there is not much speech involved thru out,
but it has simple meaning=/
so its a 3.5*/5* for edmund!

also on a side note,
i watched kallang roar that day with:
Jun Hao
Denise
Suan Woo
guess i have nth much to comment bout the show,
only good point about this singapore production,
is that the storyline was abit touching.
other than that, this show is very average.
nth worth the watch for me.
a 2*/5* from me.=/

ok, time for a short break,
tmr shall blog about one more movie i just watch today,
Babylon A.D.
a real disappointment for that.
for now, stay tuned!

2008-09-09T22:53:00.002+08:00

ok. my blog has to be left to rot for quite some time alr.
not like nth is happening to me.
is just that too much happened.
and i just dun know how to blog it all down.
partly my movie updates are coming abit late too.
watched wall-e n kallang roar recently but no time to put it down.
guess i will get it up soon, wait for it!!

been thinking really just too much these days.
i needs think less, or else can die luhh.
save me man.=(

2008-09-02T21:56:00.000+08:00

edmund is gonna fall real sick=(

2008-08-31T23:31:00.002+08:00

guess i'm just typing all this for someone that may not even read.
cuz i doubt u even knew my blog address.
i was just packing my drawer out of boredom just now.
when i saw something in the corner of my eye.
the large eeyore paperclip.
n the letter long ago.
thats when i realised i lost a great friend.
i always convinced myself.
forgetting this friend may be the best for the both of us.
but hell no, i found myself wrong.
so wrong all the while.
i felt something missing.
the feeling of having someone to talk to.
someone that can be there for me.
someone that i can say everything anything to.
but i just realised another thing.
everything seemed to have settled down now.
even thou we talk. but are we still like before?
i sadly felt no, cuz there is a distance. i felt so distant.
in fact we have zero idea of what's going on in each others life.
he did not even said a word during my birthday.
not even a sms to wish me.
what can i possibly do?
i just want to change the situation.
make things better than before.

2008-08-24T20:39:00.001+08:00

yea, thanks ah.
the whole world is against me.

2008-08-22T22:37:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY TIMOTHY!

2008-08-22T22:22:00.002+08:00

ok. guess my long birthday post has to be postponed.
just too tired to blog bout that now.
plus i'm still trying my best to consolidate photos 1st.
shall have that up hopefully on sunday.

anw, to the doctor out there!
make sure nic tan gets well!!

so tired recently, so tired.
have not been really doing much.
but i'm just feeling so tired.
i need the motivation to carry on.
tired from asking friends out.
i meant really tired, both mentally n physically.
sometimes i just feel so extra.
always being the one doing it.
past caring the worth of it.
cuz i know, this is how we don't drift apart.
this is how we maintain.
or else, one day we might not know
when is the next time we meet.
what can we say to each other.
how each other has been.
why are we still meeting.
who is this in front of me.
where did we last stop at.
but, i'm just too tired.
it has to be me doing the talking first.
me doing the planning.
me doing this, saying that, asking this, initiating that.
then when can i be the one on the other end?
i'm just too tired,
and i hate this feeling.

2008-08-19T23:54:00.001+08:00

OMG. PLS get nic tan well doc!!
so that i can see a healthy him!!=D

2008-08-18T00:00:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF!
I'M 19 ALREADY!

2008-08-17T22:01:00.003+08:00

MICHAEL PHELPS

hey hey! introducing this guy that i am so envious of!
he is the recent headlines everywhere!
michael phelps!!
this dude clinched a total of 8 gold medals in the beijing 08!!
i proclaim him my new idol.haha.
he is really superb in the pool.
breaking a total of 5 world records.
and he is the record holder of winning 8gold medals in one olympics!
i guessed i nv managed to miss any of his events.
he really swam his best in every swim.
he is really the highlight of the games this time round!

and to sidetrack..
badminton was rather expected.
Zhang Ning claimed gold for women's single.
thou she is old but she is still good to go!
and Lin Dan defeated Lee Chong Wei in the finals just now!
Lin Dan is definitely worthy of his gold.
he really played superbly well in this game.
on another note, table tennis was not really worth the watch.
i supposed i predicted that china would trash singapore alr.
but i'm really really happy that the team has brought singapore a medal finally!
after so many countless donkey years!
although it is only a silver..
but we will work hard for a gold in the coming olympics!
and maybe get more than one medal!

2008-08-17T02:19:00.002+08:00

time for updates on sat=)
which was ytd alr i suppose.
a total rush from point A to B for me.=(
and alot of money spent for no reason=|
time to go for the significant events.
first up was family gathering at my cousin's place.
all done to have a gathering for my birthday.
guess it has been awhile since i appeared in a gathering.
guess everyone missed me thats why.
hahaha! so bhb of me.
cousins gave me a belt as present,
not to mention i got something very very similar!
guess great minds think alike!
i will still love and use this present no matter what!
and when we get together,
it's always time to camwhore i guess!
pictures not with me yet..
shall upload a few when i get it! haha.
next was my mad rush from cck to St James.
took a long while to flag a cab.
and reached so late.
only in time to catch a little then it was the price presentation.
was rather disappointed in the initials..
cuz i was expecting jieying to hit a prize at least.
BUT the finale was shocking.
jieying actually manged to clinch the first!
i was feeling sad for her alr.
cuz the more pragmatic me thought another contestant stood a higher chance.
but she actually managed to come in first!
kailing was so happy for jieying that she even cried!
haha. i also felt happy for her.
all her countless effort at least did not go to waste=)
after that grabbed the complimentary housepour.
got myself my fav; GinSprite.
then we left the powerhouse alr.
went down to harbour front mac for supper.
did not eat cuz was not hungry.
then after a long while,
the surprise came along.
with alot of laughter n loopholes i suppose.
kailing n edwin are totally retarded.
they were like sms-ing each other when they are sitting both beside me!
with me just in between..
i was like -.- and i laughed.
but i just could nt bear to expose them.=)
they actually got me a mc chicken in place of a cake luhh!
and they sang me my birthday song with that!
i was totally very pai seh la.
and i hid myself behind a brochure.
and they gave me a green polo.=D
totally loves it.
not only cuz it's green luhh.
plus it has stripes!! haha.
thanks jit for the great choice man!

had a long night i suppose.
shall turn in alr!
to be updated again!!=D

NOTE; 1 more day to GO!

2008-08-16T00:23:00.003+08:00

such awhile since i made an entry.
guess recently has been rather happening.
especially to my unit.
changes n changes.
that is going to turn the world upside down.
some changes are meant for the better.
i never questioned the nature of the change.
but the past shown us clearly.
some changes will never work.
but why for insist on it then?
the resentment would rise in this case..
why cant everything remain the same?
so that everybody can be happy with it.
forget it. things can wait in that case.
anw my spree of bad luck recently is there.
but hope it all ended with the hours under the sun.=/
spent on gardening.=(
anyway! drop all the dumb issues at hand.
i have finally come to my long break!
i deserve this man!
for its my birthday!
i simply love myself! =)
just let me enjoy these few days.
rest n recharge for the future ahead!
guess its getting late.-*yawns*
thats all for the moment!
to be updated!=D

2008-08-12T23:59:00.003+08:00

ok. i failed my retail therapy plans today.=(
thats super sad n lousy.
u feel like a failure man.
thats what i feel now><

today was another half day=D
went out wif the k9 gang for minds.
we had: Geraint, WeiLong, ME, Kenny, Timothy, Dominic.
played for 4 hours straight.
but only managed to play two games.
and the second game was only near completion.
felt that the first game is just draggy.
but it is rather fun n entertaining.
but the game drags forever when we form alliances=/
the second game is just fantasy based.
n u gotta bid for stones!haha.
but just all these worth 5dollars of entertainment is worth!

later met up with jit hin in town.
for our retail therapy session.
jit hin wanted this to be a retail therapy session.
n i actually agreed.
when i just told myself to control spending.=/
but i felt therapy makes u feel less sad.
especially when u're in NS!
haha. works quite well for me.
but not enough $$ to do it all the time..
or else i may be a happier NSF!=|
so we decided to walk arnd.
and to my HORROR.
the topman in wisma is GONE.
so is the one in SHAW!
plus the fish n co in wheel lock place POOFED!
when i still thought all these are arnd..
guess it has been just too long since i went town..
dropped by places like wisma far east n taka to shop.
n we ended up EMPTY HANDED.
can u imagine that?
where's the therapy man.
complete failure. =(
guess it's time to plan a real therapy session.=)

2008-08-10T17:59:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday to Edwin Ong! (080808)
aka twin! enjoy yourself!
Happy Birthday to Singapore! (090808)
National day parade this year was a disappointment.
i watched it in k9 mess-.-
imagine the agony watching it alone.
or maybe not?!
i feel that this year's celebration is ok only.
maybe my mood affected my judgement pretty much i suppose.
i felt rather isolated from national day.
duty sucks i suppose.
furthermore recently it has been over-eventful for me.
too much for me to take it.
too much for me to handle properly.
drop that i suppose. life still have to go on.
i have something else better to do.
anw it's one more week to my birthday!
it's now the only thing i can have in my mind.
the only thing i look forward to.;)

2008-08-04T21:55:00.002+08:00

Money No Enough II

a typical singapore film to me i suppose.
caught this film with my mummy.
she was so interested with this show.
plus i have lesser time with her recently.
so i decided to catch this movie with her.=)
this movie has a typical jack neo plot to me.
but the good part is that it is full of stupid humour here n there.
the satires against the govt was well-made i suppose.
totally impressed me with it.=/
the story line was abit little touching i presume.
a show worth watching if u have the time=)
a 3*/5* for me!

2008-08-03T22:36:00.002+08:00

i have been set thinking recently,
where is all my money going?
i found out i actually spent alot alot every month.
without actually noticing.
this is not doing me good.
so i have decided on a plan.
i shall keep a good record of my finances.
in my organiser for sure.
write down every single minute detail of my spendings.
n i decided this to start on the next payday!!
so that i can keep check on my spendings thru the month.
and know where to save on.
so that i can hopefully be richer.
not spend more money on the pretext of planning!~
hahaha. i am so determined now=D
and i just realized.
another week has just passed!
i'm now another week nearer to my birthday!
2more weeks! 2 more weeks!!

2008-08-01T23:18:00.003+08:00

Many things to blog about today i guess.
first of all i guess i have to continue my story from wed.
wed i came out to meet denise at woodlands first.
den i corked up.
wanted to meet go cut hair at cwp.
instead denise went up to platform alr.
so i just joined her not to waste her money.
n later to my horror i knew,she had concession!
omg. i had to cut my hair at chapter2.
i long wanted to try out this salon alr.
the turnout was good.
but i think abit too pricey.
after the haircut was the highlight of the day for me.
my sandals juz broke on me in marina square!
thats was totally OMG.
i completely stunned n shocked on the spot.
thank goodness denise thought of superglue.
but that did not help much i suppose.
in the end i walk to NUM in a pathetic state.
to get myself a new pair of sandals.
the staff was like;
"OH MY, so your sandals BROKE?"
i was like -.- thats obvious la!
ok, finally my chain of disasters ended..
then we went off to meet yq n sw at bugis.
i was totally irritated man.
the both can throw their phones away,
n go back to the age when pigeons were used.
called and called and called.
but no reply. also duno what to say.
den dined at seafood harvest in parco.
the food is kinda ok only,
but rather expensive meal,
thou we ordered quite an amt of stuffs.
i can rate the meal a 2.5*/5*
not to much satisfaction.
but the meal was enjoyable.
later denise left us cuz she had to join her family for cake.
den me sw n yq went down to mind's cafe.
cuz wed is members night.
free board-gaming, so why not?
play pandemic.
a game to save the world.
but we lost to the epidemic.=/
that should be all for that day bah.

then now i shall move on to today.
went for lunch at carl's.there was;
WeiLong
Geraint
Kenny
had a superb meal that filled my stomach to the brim.
weilong had this huge triple burger that was like a stone.
heavy n large, but weilong ate it all.
i was awed man,
given me, i think even half can fill me alr.=/
then samuel joined us after the meal to go down to mind's.
had a four hours medley of games again,
but today was a combination of brainy games.
and we ended playing pandemic,
with me introducing it to the others.=)
i am totally appalled by this game.
even the 5 brainy people lost to the virus.
the world was gone again=(
then we joined the initialD gang for dinner;
Benjamin
Edwin
Jiayun
Geraint left at this time to join his friends at sengkang=/
ate at the 99cents sushi restaurant.
did not have much for me.
cuz i concluded most of the sushi is below average for me.
then we catched the Mummy show.haha.
THE MUMMY: TOMB OF THE DRAGON EMPEROR

a totally action show.
enjoyed the graphics.
totally amazed by the storyline.
wonder how the scriptwriter comes up with such crap.
haha. totally lame la.
but the show is worth only watching the action n graphics.
Jet Li is totally wth in the show la.
shall not spoil the show for the many others.
so thats all for the show,
my rating; 2.5*/5*
a average action movie.
watch if u're interested. ;)

thats all for now.=D
long post sia.=/

2008-07-30T23:51:00.001+08:00

screw my luck man.
even blogger has to screw my post up.
zzz. damn it man.
i need a change of luck man.

2008-07-30T23:38:00.005+08:00

first n foremost!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO DENISE!

the spastic horsey! n many more nicknames to go..
but decided to let her off on her bday post then=/
u're finally 19 alr girl! so old liao lo!!
haha. i can still say this for a few more days.
just nice before my bday=D
u're the longest friend i have in life!
oops, that sounded soo wrong.
i meant longest in duration=/
the donkey number of years i known u has been special.
life would nv be the same without u around.
so touched to hear this right! haha.
although u may be late almost everytime.
although u may need to be busy at times.
although u may need to go off early usually.
BUT u always make time for mE!
haha. thats why i don't complain.
i know our friendship is worth it!
you may be spastic or retarded at times.
you may irritate me at times with your lateness.
but i never meant to be angry.
i just laugh it off at your spastic actions.
cause' u're a FRIEND. a great one indeed.
our friendship will last.
last till we grow REAL old.

that's all for now, too tired to post about today alr.
shall post it up soon!
but in summary, these two days sucked totally.
my PSP is gone fcuk, n my sandals died on me.
totally down on my luck.=(

2008-07-29T22:03:00.002+08:00

i think i ever promised not to leave this blog in desolation.
but this blog is growing dust pretty much alr.
updates are less often n irregular.
guess i have to remind myself to be pay more attention to my blog.=/
just blog about today i guess.
today was dismount day so i decided to go back jj to get my SGC.
SGC is my school graduation cert.
the highest honor jc life gives you.
the sense of satisfaction of completing the 2years.
the 2 years of mugging, of fun, of laughter.
looking at my SGC, gives me so much thoughts.
all the results just tell me i've done my part as a student=)
but not as well as the elites=(
cuz i'm just too too slack alr=/
but i was appalled by my two long pages of PQ.
it was mainly churned up by me,
with Ms Tan's editing it became superb i suppose.
i was impressed with myself by reading it. so bhb=/
anw the trip back to school makes me emotional.
makes me really wanna go back to school,
wanna just continue with jc life,
but life has to continue on i presume.
met up with my beloved tutors.
saw quite a few of my wonderful juniors.
thanks to junhao for the random sandwich=D
he totally surprised me with it=/
played bridge n slacked at the leaders' mess.
school is just wonderful i suppose.
i think my loads n loads of misses towards schooling has never subsided.
it just accumulated n accumulated.
hope i can go back end of this yr with orientation=D
talking about school, it's the people i missed so much.
army screwed me up, making me so busy.
i have minimal time to have meet-ups.
been seeing alot lesser of many people alr.
so maybe it's just the drift without school i suppose.
or i'm just thinking too much=/
i wanna school again, n be young!!=D

anw, counting down 20 more days to my birthday!!=D

2008-07-27T23:55:00.004+08:00

FINALLY! my birthday is coming people!!
just like 3more weeks to go!!!
start asking me out or else.. i would be busy!!
so bhb la, just kidding=/
i think i really cant wait for my birthday to come.
its the biggest day of my every year's life.
and this year, serving ns simply suck.
so i decided to plan myself a long break for my birthday.
n tada!! i'm free from 15th AUG till 19th AUG!
my long birthday break!!
thou i have to sacrifice abit to my duties in the month.
but all of it is worth cuz its my day!
i think i just want the day to come now man!
while shopping for presents for the july babies,
i found out something odd.
sometimes it's really so difficult to think of a perfect present.
so i decided to come out with my wishlist=D
i hope my present to be something i really want.
but something i did nt notice.
so that i can be surprised!!
but never the less, i still have this wish list=/
let the clueless people fall back on when they are drained of ideas.
so here goes;

1. fossil watch! or maybe a superb nice watch.=/ thou i dun think birthday can give watches=/
2. clothes!! i never think they are enough=/ esp river island!
3. i dun mind a pair of levi's!
4. Belt, but i think this is tough, cuz i'm picky with this.=/
5. Shoes, i badly need a new pair, have been so long since i said so alr.
6. Timbuk2, i seriously dun mind this!!
7. berms, thou i feel it's also quite difficult for me to find a pair i love.
8. Shure headphones! i feel spoilt. haha.

ok. end the list alr. found myself listing my dreams instead of wants.
all the above are so impossible.
guess i just wasted my time typing.
nah. but it's realistic to look at it n feel happy=)
dreaming of these things also make my dream more sweet.
guess i am too tired to think.
all the words coming out are crap alr.
shall end the nonsense here first..
to be continued=D

2008-07-24T20:31:00.002+08:00

it has been so damn long since i ever blogged i suppose.
it has been super hectic recently for me.
alot to be done in such a short while.
yesterday was yet another day of mixed feelings i suppose.
it was the send-off for michelle.
first we had a minds cafe session with:
ME.
Michelle.
Su wen.
Yue qi.
Joflin.

superb gaming. esp sabotuer.
i proclaim it as my fav now at minds.
a game where u can plan n scheme.
not in the evil sense, but it works out your brain.
gives u a good sense of satisfaction after each game.

after that was dinner at Sakae sushi.
Jun Wen, her bf, and denise joined in too.
Sakae sushi was kinda boring.
the food i meant,
now i understand ala carte sushi is crap.
so extravagant to eat on ala carte.
the bill totaled to about 130 odd bucks.
when everyone did not eat much.
it is approximately 16bucks each.
what a waste of money i think.

then guess the next activity?!
take neoprints! -.-
it has been so long since i ever did so.
cuz i rather take pictures with a decent camera.
neoprints i suppose is expensive photo taking.
BUT, girls are extremely fond of wasting on it.
so i just played along=)
the neoprint taken was funny.=/
shall post it up when i have it.

ANd, last place we dropped by was shaw towers.
for ICE CREAM!
there is this desolate ice cream shop in there.
i suppose i forgot to blog bout it the first time i went.
BUT BUT BUT..
they sell SUPERB ice cream!
it is never the normal chocolate or strawberry ice cream u can find outside.
they have many unique flavors as such:

Caramel cheesecake; tastes like popcorn=/
Granny's favorite; an all time fav by all i suppose.
Pink guava; one word, REFRESHING.
Lavender; not to my liking, just like mouth 'aroma-therapy'=(
Rum n Raisins; one of my fav, with a mild alcoholic taste, totally mesmerizing.
Oreo cheesecake; my personal all time fav=)
Summer berries; special n nice.
Apple pie; no comments, normal to me.
Banana n Roasted honey nuts; a must-have for banana fans!

and many many more flavors that i'm lazy to mention.=/
purplexed over which flavor to have?
no worries!! u can try a little of each for free!
it's on the house!
and the good thing is:
these flavors ain't permanent!
they change monthly!
except for some top-sellers.
WHY? cuz the boss see the need to be on the move constantly,
providing customers with new flavors to excite their taste buds.
the shop is also very innovative,
always trying new, daring flavors.
to bring our taste-buds on a completely new icecream experience!
a 4*/5* from edmund!!

2008-07-18T22:07:00.001+08:00

Harmony-seeking Idealist (HI)

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Harmony-seeking Idealists are characterised by a complex personality and an abundance of thoughts and feelings. They are warm-hearted persons by nature. They are sympathetic and understanding. Harmony-seeking Idealists expect a lot of themselves and of others. They have a strong understanding of human nature and are often very good judges of character. But they are mostly reserved and confide their thoughts and feelings to very few people they trust. They are deeply hurt by rejection or criticism. Harmony-seeking Idealists find conflict situations unpleasant and prefer harmonious relationships. However, if reaching a certain target is very important to them they can assert themselves with a doggedness bordering on obstinacy.

Harmony-seeking Idealists have a lively fantasy, often an almost clairvoyant intuition and are often very creative. Once they have tackled a project, they do everything in their power to achieve their goals. In everyday life, they often prove to be excellent problem solvers. They like to get to the root of things and have a natural curiosity and a thirst for knowledge. At the same time, they are practically oriented, well organised and in a position to tackle complex situations in a structured and carefully considered manner. When they concentrate on something, they do so one hundred percent - they often become so immersed in a task that they forget everything else around them. That is the secret of their often very large professional success.

As partners, harmony-seeking idealists are loyal and reliable; a permanent relationship is very important to them. They seldom fall in love head over heels nor do they like quick affairs. They sometimes find it very difficult to clearly show their affection although their feelings are deep and sincere. In as far as their circle of friends is concerned, their motto is: less is more! As far as new contacts are concerned, they are approachable to only a limited extent; they prefer to put their energy into just a few, close friendships. Their demands on friends and partners are very high. As they do not like conflicts, they hesitate for some time before raising unsatisfactory issues and, when they do, they make every effort not to hurt anyone as a result.

so damn true. especially the bold parts i think=/

2008-07-18T17:56:00.002+08:00

watched the dark night ytd wif k9 guys=)
a must-watch show!!
i rate it like 4*/5*.
a very high rating for me alr i suppose.
it has a superb plot with unpredictable twists.
thou a slight more complicated,
but it is possible to understand the plot well.
i was very surprised by the twists the plot provided.
back to the action, one word: WOW
it is simply superb.
but i really pity the blue Lambo, totally smashed!!
combining the action n plot,
this show is a must-watch this summer!
some things i didn't really like bout this show..
1, the female lead was below average=/
2, the last part of action was abit too messy.

BUT, WATCH THIS SHOW MAN!
OR ELSE U WOULD REGRET IT BIG TIME!

2008-07-12T23:10:00.002+08:00

too much to be said.
i've to say that i'm just unwilling to post it out.
so much weighing down.
so much to think about,
but i'm not exactly thinking.
u can say that i'm unwilling to face reality.
yes, edmund is trying to be strong.
cuz he tried to face it all alone.
but he realised it is too much to take on.
he is at a desperate loss i suppose.
he told no one, cuz he could not open up this time.
he has no idea what to do alr.

anw,

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY TO YUE QI THE RETARD!

2008-07-10T20:46:00.002+08:00

ok. i am so tired these days.
all the nonsense that i've to do daily.
crap to the max, coupled with my lousy schedule this week.
today is like the only day i took a breather.
took my half day, to avoid the saikang=/
then, went out wif the k9 ppl!!
kenny, edwin twin, bay!, weilong, benja, geraint.
went for hell boy2 at the grand cathay.
before that went for lunch at carl's jr.
the show is easily described, BORING..
quite disappointed, expected much more from this show.
i wanted to watch it since i saw the trailer.
expected it to be at least action-packed.
BUT, the plot is totally unacceptable,
the action is boring,
i even get to doze off during a very boring part.
i think i rate it like 2*/5*, watch unless interested.
later went to mind's cafe for games!!
it was super funny to play the games.
all the shouting n screaming there.
love that place totally,
a very good place to get together for games n fun=)

think thats all for now, update when i have more to say, tada~!

2008-07-07T15:57:00.001+08:00

super stupid day i suppose.
wasted hell lots of time.
cant be bothered to elaborate i suppose.
anw, i am so bored.
bored to bits alr.
life is juz too boring i suppose.
keen to learn something.=D

2008-07-05T00:37:00.002+08:00

finally, things are all in order i suppose.
hope things can stay this way.
no no, there is still some more to be done.
gain back the confidence in the long-lost friendship.
i suppose so, he must do it.
just no more bad incidents pls. =/

2008-07-03T22:10:00.002+08:00

10 promises to my dog.
a very sad and touching movie.
a must watch for dog-lovers!!
i rate it a 4*/5*!
cuz i'm a dog handler i suppose.
i was damn touched by scenes in the show,
thus explaining my high rating i suppose.
plus the dog in the show is super duper cute!
so pls watch this show if u're a dog-lover!!
not to be missed!=D

we decided to go back on the same bus.
to take on the same ride like before.
but i have no confidence what can be the same.
u said so, i should believe so.
let's just look forward n see then.
it takes 2 hands to clap.
u need to put in effort to change a situation.

as for nic tan, i have no idea.
no response i suppose?
i would nt waver this time.
cuz i want him to know.
there is a limit to my tolerance.
especially when i'm in a bad mood.

2008-06-30T22:43:00.002+08:00

i mean i must be down on my luck recently,
all the unlucky nonsense happening to me.
really sucks to the bits now.
super tired n shagged out after ops.

day2 after nic tan nv replied me.
i dun mean i am still angry or wad.
but he is just too much this time.
so what if things are meant as a joke only?
jokes only count in perspective.
how do u expect me to take it lightly,
when i am in such a lousy mood?
aren't u just selfish?

2008-06-29T15:13:00.001+08:00

watched Get Smart n Wanted alr.
both shows are relatively ok i suppose.
2.5*/5* for Get Smart.
a stupid funny show i must say,
good enough for u to laugh all the way. ;)
but trade-off, the story is nth,
u might just forget it in a short period of time i suppose.
but worth the catch, just for the fun n laughter.
3*/5* for Wanted.
COOL action i wanna say.
that's why it got abit better.
the story is kinda normal to me.
n the part about the weaving machine is DUMB!
like as if that can be how true la!
but i am impressed with the effects n action!
a cool movie to watch i suppose.;)

2008-06-28T23:41:00.002+08:00

yepp. edmund is selfish, he loves himself above others.
but who is not selfish? man are all SELFISH.
yes, i made u worth it, i approached u.
but so what? we are distant.
almost like strangers, talking on the mere superficial.
its like something that 2 strangers can talk about.
so what's the point of me talking then?
i wanted to get back the great best friend.
sounds simple as that, but never easy.
and the situation now seems to be just stuck.
i just want t0 make things like before i guess.
can it just be?

yes, nic tan pissed me off. like wth.
i am RIDICULOUS.

2008-06-21T13:50:00.002+08:00

felt so speechless. nth to talk.
or rather, unwilling to talk.
yes, disappointed by people.
but i never felt so tired before.
both mentally n physically tired.
guess thats why i am like that now.
lonely on a sat, with duty later.
completely unwilling to communicate.
i am just waiting for people to talk.
but sadly, no, i am left alone=(
i am so tired.
completely.
n all i need is the word of encouragement.

2008-06-20T00:00:00.003+08:00

my temperant has became for the worst since i started ops.
total dismay i must say.
lack of proper slp n stuffs is driving me mad.
struggling to hang on there although i'm like falling alr.
n ytd went out wif nic tan aka my brother aka pig.
wrong time to go out i guess.
did something i nv expected myself to be capable of.
so sorry i must say.
thou i hate to say it.
shall update more when i have more to say.
just rambling i guess? lol.

2008-06-15T15:01:00.001+08:00

chances dun come by with the wind.
chances dun come by with help of others.
chances would never fall from the sky.
cuz u earn ur own chances.
n u fight for ur cause.

2008-06-15T11:44:00.002+08:00

i really have no idea what i'm doing.
i have no idea what the hell u want.
u are just making it seem like i'm in the fault.
i am like begging to talk to u.
as if i am so desperate to talk to u.
that's not the case.
i am just trying to remedy things fast.
BUT u dun wan it.
u want things to DRAG.
OK, fine, lets DRAG.
u're just creating more disappointment.
dun wait till u hurt the heart.
or else things would nv be the same.

2008-06-14T18:13:00.002+08:00

haha. i juz get tons n tons of sorry, but i'm not happy.
u can say i'm petty, difficult to please.
yes i admit to it, i AM so.
but so wad? such things should nv have happened.
should there ever be sorry between buddies? i nv thought so.
i was in fact only angry at that instant.
i'm no longer angry after all. just purely disappointed, at a loss.
disappointed when my buddy is missing when i needed help.
cuz i would nv call three times just for fun.
disappointed when my buddy gave me an empty promise.
a promise that bounces off like a blank cheque.
disappointed to think that he thought sorry helps.
but too bad i'm just the one in a million that do no give a shyt to the word sorry.
disappointed to think that he assumes i'm angry.
when i'm just not at all. just disappointed.
i nv wanted any apology.
all i wanted was a chance for me to thrash things out.
EASY as that. but NO, i was denied.
so thats just too bad.
things will no longer be this simple anymore.
let me continue staying disappointed.
and i assure u can expect the worst to come.
cuz i hate this feeling. i hate it.

to everyone; u dun have to read this,
cuz i'm just trying to vent everything out. ;(

2008-06-14T00:33:00.002+08:00

watched sex n the city today wif the k9 guys.
kenny n leon at marina square.
i think this show is like superb, 4/5* for me.
totally exceeded my expectations of this show.
its not a must-watch,
but juz try to catch this show!!
i think its really damn nice.
except i guess the ending should come with a twist.
that may give the show a 5/5* alr.
but juz totally enjoyed myself with them man.;)
met up wif bmt ppl, yukai n darren, the BFFs.
so long since i ever saw them alr.
had a nice catch up session at ajisen.
then also played out at the arcade luhh.
really enjoyed myself.;)

ok. time for the long complaining part of my post.
i was totally turned off ytd n today pissed me off.
by edwin lim sheng xian.
how? by juz doing my most hated act;
not picking up the call.
i mean i HATE it.
when i call, n u dun pick up.
after that u also dun bother finding out why i called.
then what am i? a prank caller? just to be ignored?
thats ME. i hate this.
ok. ytd i tried calling him, was not for FUN can.
i wanted to talk, quite badly.
but he did nt bother picking up.
called back like after near 2 hrs?
i could nt pick up for fcuk.
i was at OPS so i juz could nt do so.
but after that, i expected an sms to come by.
BUT NO. nothing came at all.
So i'm just supposed to be treated like this?
FINE, i take it, it was ok.
but today.
i called again, cuz i was at cck.
wanted to see if he's arnd to meet perhaps.
n this time, yes, he picked up.
said he's in a movie, call me back later.
SO i WAITED. N WAITED.
haha. stupid edmund.
he did nt call back at all! thats too bad!
wow, i realised i just got treated like a fool can.
waiting for call duno for wad sia.
something so simple right.
but my trust was treated like shyt.
i totally got my absolute trust shattered.
i have no idea what to expect anymore.
u just did it.

2008-06-08T14:12:00.002+08:00

ok. i had been really slack in blogging recently.
cuz i had started my duties alr.
so its the start of my convoluted life.
things would start to go real haywire for me.
night becomes day, everyday can be my working day.
but nevertheless, things are still fine i hope.
juz that i may start living like a panda><
talking abt that, ytd was great!
went out wif my asshole buddy, edwin!
soo long since i met him can.
he went to taiwan for his commando training.
n glad he came back safe n sound=/
went to queensway wif him to shop.
wanted to get myself a pair of puma shoes.
but duno why, considered v long, n i gave it up.
guess i'm juz too broke alr.
n we went back to lot1 for kungfu panda!!
its a hilarious show man!!
very lame i muz say, but it's so so funny can.
i rate it a 4/5* cuz of the laughter.
later we 2 went for a meal at NYNY!
my favourite restaurant i must say.
the new branch at lot1 was small=/
but we still manage to grab our seats in a short while.
ordered some crazy meat platter for 2.
n the both of us was SHOCKED when we saw it come.
the platter is HUGE.
n we both ate till our stomachs were super bloated.
n edwin still complained of stomachache lo.
n edwin bought me a shirt from taiwan!
lol. muz compliment him can.
he muz have spent alot of effort in looking for this lo.
n still kena scam-.-
k la. thats all for this update i guess.
got to go back for ops duty very soon!!
SIAN!

i'm looking forward to tmr!

2008-06-04T22:35:00.003+08:00

ok. i've done my first ops duty alr!
soo many many more to go before i ORD.
haha. the feeling is juz like different.
but i still have to do it=)
not really torturing, but tiring i guess.
lucky my first was a slack one=)
fine enough of all the talk on Ns.
now, i've gotten myself my ipod classic alr!!
80GB! my darling=)
thats all for now i guess.

u're the queen of my heart.
my heart wavers with every word u say.
i cant be rational anymore.

2008-06-01T09:29:00.001+08:00

maybe i'm just a nobody to u.
maybe u don't even bother how i'm feeling.
BUT,
i bother.
cuz u're somebody to me.
and i really hope u cared.

2008-05-30T22:09:00.002+08:00

Your Inner Blood Type is Type O

You are outgoing, gregarious, and well loved.

And it's a good thing you're super charming...

Because you also tend to be a bit flaky!

Your confidence gets your far, and you always speak your mind.

You are most compatible with: O and AB

Famous Type O's: John Lennon and Elvis

What's Your Inner Blood Type?

2008-05-30T22:09:00.001+08:00

Your Thinking is Concrete and Random

You are naturally inquisitive and curious.

You're excited by new ideas, and you are a true independent thinker.

You are interested in what is possible. You like the process of discovery.

You are often experimenting, challenging old ideas, and inventing new concepts.

Rules, restrictions, and limit don't really work for you.

You have to do things your own way, and you can't be bothered to explain yourself.

What Kind of Thinker Are You?

2008-05-30T21:53:00.003+08:00

my official 500th post.
has been so long since i first started this blog.
alot has happened.
alot has changed.
alot of ppl are different.
alot of things are no longer the same.
thinking back of what has happened.
i feel so old all of a sudden.
there's always just so much to settle.
but this blogs not only keep tracks of unhappy moments.
there has been so much so much happy memories captured here.
so much to remember, to look back at.

and i hope i can continue to maintain this blog at my own pace.;)

2008-05-28T21:34:00.003+08:00

recently simply sucked.
i've got nth much to really blog about.
army is soo boring.
i'm juz paid to be a SK warrior.
SK= SAI KANG.[ shyt jobs ]
all the SK 101 drives me mad daily.
starting to tone my attitude to be more jian zha.
have to learn to avoid or else will die.><
anw, i've got to start my ops duty next week alr.
got to suck i guess.
n i've done my chemical defence alr!
the chemical suit is a complete disaster la.
hot, stuffy, uncomfortable, n many more.
n the tear gas is damn cool.
a once in a lifetime experience i guess.
i would nv wanna experience it again.
n juz to announce!!
i would be getting my new ipod classic v v soon!!
looking forward to it v much.

can it just be the right time?
can u just be the right one?
can u tell me what u're thinking?
cuz i'm afraid, afraid of losing u.
u just mean too much alr.

2008-05-25T22:21:00.002+08:00

watched the sichuan charity show on chn8 juz nw.
at first i was rather reluctant to watch.
cuz there was no such thing for the past natural disasters.
such as katrina or tsunami.
BUT.
there is always a flip side to watching.
at moments i was even touched to tears.
the disaster juz took away too much from the ppl there.
maybe cuz i felt the pain of losing a dear one too.
i simply could nt bear the sight of the disaster there.
the ppl there are either orphans.
or parents that lost their child.

stop these disasters pls.=(

2008-05-25T14:24:00.002+08:00

i dun even know what's wrong with me.
i had nv been so uptight before.
nv so worried, nv so anxious.
u deflated my high hopes.
but u relighted my hopes again.
i have no idea what u want now.
i juz wanna know what u're thinking now.
can u just tell me?

2008-05-25T01:35:00.002+08:00

retail therapy is seriously..
SO SHIOK!
it makes u so happy can.
today went to vivo with jithin.
cuz there is the GREAT SINGAPORE SALE!
so many many things on sale alr can.
its like simply a waste not to shop right?
so we went on our spree!
i spent like hundred plus can.
cuz i bought jeans for myself=)
jit spent a bit lesser than me only.
cuz we two simply went crazy grabbing all the stuffs.
i bought like a berms, jeans, 2 tees.
so satisfied n happy now la.;)

2008-05-23T19:49:00.002+08:00

洋葱杨宗纬

如果你眼神能够为我
片刻的降临
如果你能听到
心碎的声音
沉默的守护著你
沉默的等奇迹
沉默的让自己
像是空气
大家都吃著聊著笑著
今晚多开心
最角落里的我
笑得多合群
盘底的洋葱像我
永远是调味品
偷偷的看著你
偷偷的隐藏著自己

如果你愿意一层一层一层的剥开我的心

你会发现你会讶异
你是我最压抑最深处的秘密
如果你愿意一层一层一层的剥开我的心
你会鼻酸你会流泪
只要你能听到我看到我的全心全意

听你说你和你的他们
暧昧的空气
我和我的绝望
装得很风趣
我就样一颗洋葱
永远是配角戏
多希望能与你有一秒
专属的剧情

2008-05-21T19:17:00.002+08:00

擦肩而过李圣杰

我爱着谁
爱到我有点醉
告诉我你是谁
能够把我让我变不对
你不会累
但我却爱你爱得好累
从没有为了谁
不顾安危付出一切
站在这平衡点
我还是觉得有点危险
或许是看不见
只能够靠感觉
他不会是个好男人
也不会是个好情人
你对我说我们只是擦肩而过
好的男人有那么多
少了他的日子也能过
我不会再让你寂寞
也不会让你更难过
你听我说要好好学着去生活
就算未来有多少错
至少还有我的问候
我的温柔陪你度过

2008-05-19T22:48:00.002+08:00

i am so selfish.
i want things to go my way.
i dun wan u to think of him anymore.
i want u to forget the past.
so this selfishness is wrong?
partly i guess.
u cant forget him. yes.
i cant force u. yes.
so now what must i do?
just forget everything?
i cant do it.
u nv knew how i felt..

i juz need ur love. is it that difficult?

2008-05-18T23:21:00.002+08:00

guess wad?
i officially kena pang-sehed by jonah again.
3 times in a row alr.
guess i'm like completely sian-ed.
sian to the max x10
cant believe it lo.
completely stunned.
i nv had been stupid 3 times in a row.
but today i was like calm.
no longer fuming mad.
guess i kinda used to it.
like tot it was normal to happen.

2008-05-16T23:48:00.002+08:00

omg. the sale is here!!!
starting soo soon la.
today i alr bought polo le.
cuz i could nt resist the temptation at topman.
SALE!!

i wanna get drunk.
so that i can forget.
so that i can dun think.
so that i can dun love.

2008-05-15T23:55:00.001+08:00

failed. i expected it to come.
but i wanna change the outcome.
but i did nt make it happen.

2008-05-13T20:45:00.002+08:00

my dearest buddy, edwin the asshole is gonna be gone for 3weeks.
off to taiwan for his commando training.
hope that all will seriously go well for him.
n guess wad, this is one long period of time i wun see him!
like nv really happen b4 man.
i am too used to him being so nearby.
dependence kills man, this buddy is too impt. haha.

i juz wan ur love. simple as that.

loveorbreak

2008-05-11T22:33:00.001+08:00

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You scored as HR/BusinessManagement

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It is possible that the best major for you is your 2nd, 3rd, or even 5th listed category, so be sure to consider ALL majors in your OTHER high scoring categories (below). You may score high in a category you didnt think you would--it is possible that a great major for you is something you once dismissed as not for you. The right major for you will be something 1) you love and enjoy and 2) are really great at it.

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Accounting/Finance/Marketing

94%

HR/BusinessManagement

94%

Psychology/Sociology

81%

Education/Counseling

63%

PoliticalScience/Philosophy

63%

Nursing/AthleticTraining/Health

63%

Mathematics/Statistics

56%

English/Journalism/Comm

56%

History/Anthropology/LiberalArts

50%

French/Spanish/OtherLanguage

50%

Religion/Theology

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Visual&PerformingArts

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2008-05-11T22:16:00.002+08:00

Happy Mother's Day!

to my dearest mummy.
for giving birth to me!
for always being by my side no matter what.
u're the best!

2008-05-11T12:31:00.002+08:00

thurs was fam shoot.
horrible to the core.
there was ppl that was bobo to the core.
cuz the rifle was nt zero-ed.
then we were made to come back again on fri to shoot-.-
damn it la. i gt guard on fri can!
then fri was damn taxing.
fam shoot + guard.
the whole day totally gone.
guard was completely horrible also.
sucks totally.
ytd was class outing! lol.
went to west coast park for 'picnic'.
only had pizza la! haha.
den also shun bian celebrated jiayang n edwin's b'day!
thats all i guess? haha.

if u dun try u would nv know.

2008-05-07T23:47:00.003+08:00

such awhile since i blogged! lol!
anw. share some upcoming news 1st.
ntu finally offered me a course.
my 2nd choice: chem engineering.
sucks can. i dun deserve business meh?
lol. heck that la. i dun wish for that anw.
seems that my mind shld be more or less settled.
gonna accept soon. cuz i dun wanna digress.
n i wun wan to regret.=/

back to something else.
watched IRONMAN today with edwin.
like finally rite?
after everyone [almost] has watched it.
i rate it 4 outta 5 stars!!
cuz i'm such an action fan!
haha. guess the imperfect part is the lack of more action.
n i wan more exciting story!
but the whole concept was superb.
2thumbs up for that!!

i dun wanna run away from it anymore.

2008-05-03T23:02:00.000+08:00

NUS
Application status

The general stages for the application status are
Application received --> Application processing --> Outcome of application

You have been offered Business Admin in academic year 2010 - 2011.
The details of the offer will be stated in the offer letter.
Your letter of offer was sent on 30-Apr-2008.
Please reply at the Joint Acceptance website by 02-Jun-2008.

2008-05-02T21:55:00.002+08:00

ok. this sucks. recently has been so NOT smooth sailing.
everything juz seems to go wrong can.
damn it. so damn it.
yes. laugh at me. i got pang seh-ed AGAIN.
by the same person.=/
how dumb can i get rite. i also cant believe myself.
i can actually be so dumb, to trust him.
n almost kena left at beach road.
i was lucky it did nt happened cuz i msged to confirm.
or else, i would be fuming mad alr.
thats wad ppl that claim to be great best friends do right?
such an irony.

2008-04-30T22:13:00.002+08:00

long post of complains, bother to read on if only u're really bothered.

1st of all. i juz wasted freaking 8 bucks buying something WORNG.
some wrong book! tmd la!
damn freaking pissed off wif myself.
i nv made such a dumb mistake b4 can.
tmd x10

2nd. today in camp was crap.
the whole atmosphere among the 9 'so called' newbies is soo tensed.
one dumb senior juz gt himself bitten by his dog.
how stupid can that get can-.-
n guess wad? he's on guard duty that day.
so whos gonna take over him? the newbies of coursE!
cuz they are soo free n easy to use ma.
so we have to fight it out among ourselves.
n guess wad? we play open numbers.
freaking scary game i muz admit. my heart almost came out.
n i was nt the one. this one guy tio-ed la.=/
i was at first pretty sad 4 him.
cuz all this is really bad luck man.
but i had an intuition he's gonna push things off.
n tada! he managed to make use of his some f-ed up status to escape.
pushing all the troubles back to the remaining few.
how fk-ed up can this seriously get?
so someone had to seriously take over him.
n lucky me, i still survived the second round of open numbers=/
but guess wad excuse the first guy in the end madE?
he had to meet his maple guild friends..
totally f-ed up x10 can.
that is virtual for nuts! use ur brain la. the game wun run away can!
n juz becuz of that u made urself a bastard. wth.
thanks to this ass hole, spoilt my day x10.

3rd. ytd i simmered down n thought of msging jonah alr.
thou i'm still pissed wif him ps-ing me.
but guess wad? i gt some half-hearted reply can.
so forget it. as if i'm in the wrong la.
so i'm juz gonna shut up.
i was the one being ps-ed at the very very last moment can.
thats damn crap to be treated like this.
esp by someone calling best friend.
how tragic right. guess i juz suck.
i deserved it.
n i will learn my lesson.

last. i'm juz so so so freaking pissed off now.
my mood is bad x10 x10 x10.

2008-04-28T20:56:00.002+08:00

friendships n family are everything.
LOVE IS NOTHING.
sounds so crap to hear this from me?
cuz i've thought it real hard.
i would give it my best shot.
make it my best try.
make things happen wif my best shot.
but, things may nv go my way as always.
so i'm prepared to face the truth.
bring it on la.

2008-04-27T17:39:00.002+08:00

watched forbidden kingdom today wif edwin at lot1.
the storyline was pratically unacceptable.
ridiculous n rather crappy la.
but its still worth a 3out of 5!
cuz i love the action in it!
unless u love action-packed shows alot,
dun watch the show.
juz borrow the dvd when it comes into the market.=p

2008-04-26T19:03:00.002+08:00

zzz. kena pangseh-ed by jonah.
pissed enough nt to reply his sms.
wad an asshole.
n i was nice enough to wait for his replies previously.
thinking he is free,
thinking he can make it,
thinking he would make it.
but too bad, i was wrong.
HAHA. i am so stupid.
to have such good imagination right?

cause i care,
thats why i bothered.
thats why i can be pissed off.
~~i thought u can be trusted.~~
but i was disappointed.

2008-04-25T22:08:00.002+08:00

counting down to pay day: 15more days!!
life recently juz sucked, so i'm looking most forward to payday!
cuz its the most delightful day of the month.
when u get ur pathetic allowance.
wad a paradox. =.=

anw the april bmt guys are all out today.
from their 2weeks long of confinement.
some ppl did bother.
while others are juz heck.
so much for keeping in touch rite?
~~thats juz bullshyt to me nw.~~

2008-04-24T22:34:00.001+08:00

SMU accepted me!!

business course!!=D

so now i have a uni to go to!

*hops arnd*

super duper happy x1000000000000000000

2008-04-23T21:52:00.002+08:00

OMG. my nose is now like a tap.
macham cant control now la, auto tap sia.
flows like nobody's business. screw it man.
feels like i'm gonna fall sick soon. zzz.
i really hate to fall sick.
cuz i dun have 1 illness at a go.
its usually a large conmbination strike me at once.
>< n i have to be down for a few days min.
hope i dun fall sick yet man.
there alot to do for the next few weeks i guess.
so i cant afford to fall sick.
back to my unit life.
kinda slack lo. for the time being.
cuz we are still nt operationally ready.
so everyday is either slack or do saikang lo.
saikang is unavoidable i guess.
cuz we are still newbies ma.
of cuz all the shytty jobs go to us lo.
fine. my hands have to go to stop my tap nw.
thats all.

the scar that still burn till today.
the only barrier i've got to overcome.
the ultimate source of my fears.