Saturday, July 21, 2007
guess wad? i'm now at my cousin's hse.
my study plans for the weekends flopped.
TOTALLY.><
pissed wif myself. cant seem to concentrate well.
ok. i mean i know i'm nt the worse.
there are still ppl worse.
BUT i know myself.
if i still dun go all out.
i wun make it well.
and i dun wan tt to happen.
been overly stressed recently.
guess i think too much.
too many things to cover and no time to complete.
freak it man.
Posted at 7:55 PM
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boos. weekends pass so fast larr.
like in a blink!
boohoo!!
and guess wad.
my last few moments of my weekends are devoted to.
PHYSICS!! so hardworking me.
trying to help yue qi qif her probs.
found myself more probs though.
but managed well.
to solve her probs.
so proud of myself.;)
my birthday is coming in a month!
i will be 18 SOON!! ;)
i still dun know how to let go.
when it simply sucks to hold on.
Labels: physics-.-
Posted at 11:02 PM
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Saturday, July 14, 2007
eccentric. all the eccentric stuffs i done.
through ytd and today.
first i slpt for like 20 hours?
frm ytd 4 till 12 today.
did woke up abit to msg only.
felt never so refreshed.
second, i did nt study a single shyt.
i simple dumped all my work away.
third, i did nt talk to anyone else other than my parents.
until juz now when i sms ppl.
fourth, although i knew i was pangseh-ed.
but i was nt angry at the moment.
lastly, nt forgetting all the random stuffs ytd.
like taking bus home, dozing off on the bus.
goin for bowling when i told myself nt to.
seems like i lost myself.
uptil now, whenever alone, i still wonder,
why am i so stubborn wif his friendship?
why cant i juz let it go and move on?
i juz cant find the ans.
Labels: weird me
Posted at 9:30 PM
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when everything happens thats beyond u comprehending.
when u juz felt so damn stressed.
ur mood is juz so gloomy.
and someone's sms juz came in.
u will feel something different.
cuz he made the difference.
u juz felt better.
becuz u can see that someone does care.
so when pig siew sms me,
i seriously felt better.
when i woke up n saw his sms.
the world continues to revolve.
but i do not wish to move on.
Posted at 12:49 AM
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Friday, July 13, 2007
hmm. a very tiring day.
firstly,
HAPPY 18TH Birthday to ZHANG YUE QI!
aka REATRD=p
haha. u're 18 girl! hope u had a nice day!;)
ok. i was freaking tired.
could nt sleep well for the whole week.
n ytd still got some dumb nightmare woke me up.
at like 3AM? wth larr.
spoilt my whole mood today.
cuz i could nt concentrate well.
so the day in sch was rather wasted.
rahhhx. i juz need a good sleep.
when u cant slp well.
u will definitely feel sian-ed or even pissed.
when some ppl, that slp more than u.
claimed to be more tired.
and wads even more wrong,
is the fact that they can actually slp earlier.
so they have no right to complain.
i wish to sleep earlier too la.
but seems like i cant.
or i can, at the sake of nt doing my work.><
sleep is VITAL.
Labels: SLEEP
Posted at 12:00 AM
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Wednesday, July 11, 2007
Pictures. they remind u of everything.
guess wad?over the period of 1.5years.
i actually accumulated hundreds of photos.
every actually contained more than memories.
cuz these memories muz be wonderful.
though nt all memories were captured.
but looking at them, i'm like back there.
at that exact time and date.
doing the exact thing.
memories are scary. they seem too real.
too real to deceive u.
but unfortunately some memories are history.
no matter how hard u wan it back.
why?cuz those ppl are no longer there for u.
ur affinity wif them ended.
i nv believed in affinity. but for this split second i do.
found out i actually took the highest record of near 30 pics.
wif one person always inside at a go.
but he is gone. forever?
pictures make ppl so EMO.
but i would nv bear to delete them. ;(
Labels: PICTURES
Posted at 10:50 PM
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Monday, July 09, 2007
i really sucks to be in between.
when u cant take sides.
when u duno wad to say to either.
when u're pissed coz they're pissed.
all the whens. juz GO away!
get outta my way.
felt kinda cheated?!
dun even know whether i am hearing the truth.
which is the truth.
which is untrue.
i really cant differentiate.
but kinda hope i'm nt the one kept in the dark.
cuz i asked. and verified.
i dun how i would flare.
if i'm so kept in the dark.
juz seemed that unhappiness overflowed my day;(
Labels: dun talk to me
Posted at 10:11 PM
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Sunday, July 08, 2007
rAHHHX. darn pissed.
cant find my damned maths tutorial.
it WENT missing!
zzz. cant it nt go missing!
when i decided to attempt it.
it juz decided to go missing!!
after searching high n low,
i still cant find it.-.-
forget it. i gave up doing it.LOL.
Posted at 1:56 PM
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Saturday, July 07, 2007
当刺猬爱上玫瑰 游鸿明
你越努力靠近越刺痛自己
爱意里的敌意一身的讽刺
得不到的最美不开不枯萎
炙热的成灰对不对
不能依偎就像刺猬爱上玫瑰
曾以为直来直往才不虚伪
我们是同类却不算一对
始终学不会用粗糙的方法给彼此安慰
不能依偎就像刺猬爱上玫瑰
当防卫是自我的基本配备
心里还有谁算不算一对
脆弱是种罪所有伤悲都像是借题发挥
我何尝不爱你却伤了自己
生命是否锯齿痛才是真实
失去的最珍贵口是却心非
白昼后天黑对不对
就像倔强的刺猬爱上了多心的玫瑰
当寂寞爱也无法碰触包围
心里愈有愧愈说无所谓
心里愈疲惫感觉愈钝反应却愈发尖锐
Labels: 当刺猬爱上玫瑰
Posted at 11:47 PM
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BOO! both my friday n sat wasted.
zzz. din really study much.
when i apparently have so much to catch up on.
guess its time to practice SDSM.
LOL. the school motto.
haha. but i need it.
to do well. cuz i'm a lazy pok. =/
Labels: lazy me
Posted at 11:40 PM
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Thursday, July 05, 2007
juz finished the ousiders(dou yu).
its a damn nice show.
chionged all the 20episodes in 2days.
felt happy to finish the show.
i know now is nt the time to be doing such stuffs.
but i still wanted myself to relax.
from the over tensed situation.
felt alot better now.
anyway. time to recall something.
some ppl are juz themselves.
i mean so what if they have a certain attitude?
as long as we can accept.
juz leave it to be.
why do it the hard way and make ppl change?
and i find it damn ridiculous.
to be so harsh on a girl.
its a girl for god's sake.
there is definitely no need to be so harsh.
it was too extreme.
too much for a girl to take it.
i'm very definite about this.
wad good is there to make the girl cry?
and somemore say the wrong stuff to accuse.
this is overboard.
the truth may hurt.
but at least its the truth.
but now its NOT.
i juz feel like isolating myself at another part of the world.
Labels: loneliness
Posted at 11:12 PM
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Wednesday, July 04, 2007
saw a long-lost friend today.
ok. i duno wad means long lost.
long since we met?
or its juz long gone?
or both?! i wonder.
he did changed. alot indeed.
me too. i've changed.
i'm no longer the old me.
i dun believe so easily.
i became loads smarter wif ppl.
but it does nt ease the unnerving feeling.
i felt uneasy seeing him.
or maybe weird.
its juz nv before.never.
things would nv turn back.
but it juz made reality strike me back.
i'm a failure. a real one.
it juz happens so.
i see another "long-lost" in school too.
this one have no pun.
it simply means long gone.
but nt exactly long.
we were such close friends for this short period of time.
shared everything in mind.
but. things changed so fast. so fast beyong recognition.
no we're plain strangers.
i felt so helpless even hearing his name.
dun even wish to go anywhere near.
haha. so useless right?!
i think i'm that.
he was the one that changed me.
to believe once more in friendships.
but he was the one that broke it.
i'm now totally unable to recover from this.
it simply made me harbour this strong distrust.
for friendship n the uncertainties.
i cant believe anymore.
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Posted at 10:39 PM
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boo! lousy results all back.
a very very good indication.
to seriously buck up.
went for this motivating motivational talk today.
haha. it does nt really work for me though.
i'm nt the kind tt will be affected.
i decide more for myself.
but think wad was said was true.
there is no time to waste.
its time to really settle and study.
i can do it! GO edmund;)
sometimes i really dun understand.
Labels: motivation
Posted at 10:02 PM
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Tuesday, July 03, 2007
when it actually sucks so much to be in jc.
jc life is ultimate.
u have loads of fun.
but right now its no longer fun.
its time to face the load of stress.
to clear all the topics for everysubject.
in the ten weeks.
to fully prepare for As and prelims.
sounds damn boring?!
it is SUPER BORING!
sucks totally. i hate stress.haha.
but i'm reacting adversely to it only.
when u cant forget something.
it does nt mean others cant.
Labels: stress
Posted at 10:39 PM
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Monday, July 02, 2007
whahahaa. so proud of myself.
did like my ILT!! =D
Group2 elements.
all on my own.
studied it carefully.
and i finished all my SGC stuffs!
all on my own.
try to be as bhb as possible.
blabbered my way through.
wrote all sorts of crap.
like edmund studies.
wad an irony la.
hate to praise my self lo.
Posted at 11:00 PM
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Sunday, July 01, 2007
tired to the core.
my legs are now gonna break.
went on court shoes for 9 hours ytd luhh.
could nt get used to the arch.
somemore mine is v high de.
sucks to the core.
but this time was damn fun to work.
felt extremely tired but worth it.
8plus hours of $$!
and get to be around when the national stadium closes.
and still get to watch soccer!
get to watch fireworks!
get to booze!
get to party!!
its many wonderful benefits la!
ahha. and i got stranded outside again.
this time at kallang.
GG. we waited like ages for a cabbie.
and it's midnight charges!! wth luhh.
and guess waD?
denise and yue qi tot i got drunk-.-
when i like drank less than two bottles of beer?
zzz. i am definitely better than tt!
oops. before i forget.
HAPPY Birthday to JIT HIN!=D
ok. now back to today.
went out to shop in town.
town-ed. but did nt shop much.
din even manage to get my sandals.
got only a shirt frm topman. zzz.
went queensway after tt.
got myself a new pair of shoes.
and thats all to the trip.
super sian.
and not to forget.
someone actually made me look like an idiot.
fancy calling out his name like on orchard road.
and he dao-ed me! zzz.
pissed la. kena dao-ed for no reason.
Labels: dao-ed.
Posted at 10:30 PM
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