how can things get better.
when the person u wished to pour everything out is nt dere.
n u're lazy to find another listening ear.
when there might nt be a similar one arnd.
things will den simply get worse for u, edmund.

wad a start to a week.
bad day. very bad in fact.

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it takes much courage for me to face studying.
these days especially.
i super dread studying.
i kinda dread even the thought of going school.
cant tahan le. cant wait to take a break.
i need one substantial one.
to help me regain all my drive.
n refocus for my As.
dun ask me to go to school.
dun ask me abt school.pls.

to put it real simply.
i extremely hate two things.
ONE: ppl being LATE.
TWO: ppl tt dun ans my CALLS.

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tution outing in place!
finally!!hahas.
our swiny btutor is finally back frm the states!
lol. she still look as much swiny as before.
met today at amk.
amk hub ish so BIG!
din imagine it to be so big las.
n it has many restaurants to my liking!
subway. ichiban.pepper lunch n NEW YORK!!
lunched late at NEW YORK!!
my first time in this place.
although i ranted so many times to go in..
the green sofa!!
think the food rly nt bad.
nice nice!!
n juz miss spending time wif my tution peeps.
like soo long nv see alford lo. hahas.
n we celebrated alford's 18th!
cake at mos was weird?
haha. but we hecked.
n i simply hate shopping w/o money.
coz i simply cant spend!><
simply enjoyed my day wif these ppl;)

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ok. wonderful day to stay at home.
juz love staying at home. ;)
but i hate gastric.
hurts like shyt la..
but. i juz woke up!!
feels super refreshed.
shall spend some quality time on my work ltr.

i juz wanna shop.=/
waiting for someone to ask me out for spiderman3.=/

its juz friendship.
tt made my day.;)

ok. i'm so gonna die of the pain.
gastric again.
sick shyt. i hate it.
i ate la!!
n it still have to hurt.
zzz. die dying dead.

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hmm. went out today wif yueqi to jp.
suddenly i juz found out the numerous things i wan!!
1. new headphones for my nano=)
2. new clothes. duhh.
3. new pair of slippers.
4. new shoes.
5. new bag.
6. a cap!

seems like quite a short list?
but i'm pretty strapped for cash though.
shall save hard.

its a gloomy day.
gloomy weather.
gloomy mood.
but its supposed to be the best week so far.
coz its damn slack.
shouldn't i be happy?

N today is International Friendship Day! [i suppose]
so happy friendship day to all my beloved friends.=)

Henri Nouwen:
When we honestly ask ourselves which person in our lives means the most us, we often find that it is those who, instead of giving much advice, solutions, or cures, have chosen rather to share our pain and touch our wounds with a gentle and tender hand. The friend who can be silent with us in a moment of despair or confusion, who can stay with us in an hour of grief and bereavement, who can tolerate not knowing, not curing, not healing and face with us the reality of our powerlessness, that is a friend who cares.

u created the current situation.
there juz seems to be something missing.
did u notice?
i duno if u did.
but i did.
its the confidence i have in u. the trust.

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woot!! so proud of myself.
i really wondered how i stayed up to finish my whole TCA.
n i done it well within one n a half hour.
woot!! cant believe it.
i was so tired till my eyes could close any moment.
and i still did it!!
ok. this is getting out of hand.
i need my sleep to regain my sanity.
lol. so tada for now!!;)

i need the rainbow after the rain=/

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oops. i should nt be blogging at this point of time.
i still have loads of work to be done anw.
but heck tt. i shall blog first!

everything cleared up.
i made my decision to listen to u.
i actually asked myself.
am i dumb to listen to u this time?
and my answer was a flat no.
my doubts abt u. trust.
it is up to u to let me believe.
however, i once mentioned drifting apart.
but i dun wan it to happen.
prove me right.
and the very impt thing.
i need this precious friendship.
i'm very sure.;)

hmm. typing this post while talking over the phone.
kinda finished studying my dumb physics.
but super bo steady.
coz i gt my concepts.
but i still scared i cant apply them.
den will sure GG de lor. bleh.
hope for my best.
tmr shall be the day.

din even get a chance to post anything ytd.
came home.
and i juz ko-ed on my bed.
frm like 7pm to like 5 in the morning.
sounds like a long n gd slp.
but.
no.
i did nt slp well at all.
in fact ten hours seemed like no enjoyment.
i woke up for like many intervals.
for no reason.
too much weighing on my mind.
makes me unable to get to slp easily.
n today.
i need and shall study hard for my physics test tmr.
feel the need to do well for it.
to comfort my poor soul.
i will do it!

Hello pandas.
my perfect studying aid is now hellopandas.
keep me focused on my work well.
busy week.
econs test tmr.
gp TCA on wed.
phy on thur.
chem on friday.
weekends!!;))

Sticks and stones may break your bones when there's anger to inpart. Spiteful words can hurt your feelings but silence breaks your heart. -Unknown
nth is wrong. but there is nth right too.
i'm a dangerous man.
coz i've rationalised feelings. =/

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To lose a friend is hardship, but to forget them is as if you died too.

i've lost. i admit to it. there is no more point in deceiving myself.

it juz seemed to me tt things have changed.
it is nt as it used to be..
but i dun wan it to change..

haha. see i so free now.
n0w blogging at desmond's hse.
desmond my cousin lo.
lol. like talking loads of redundant info.
hmm. shall update more ltr when i get home. keke.

thingsfhingsseemfeemnotfotthefhesamefamebefeforefore.

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jua a random pick of quotes to describe the current me;)

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friday the 13th.
wad a week.
five days. agonising.
makes me so exhausted after the whole five days.
cant imagine i made it.
through these five days.
all the stuffs tt went through.
enuf to kill.
i'm nt happy.
i'm tired of trying to be happy.

release of pw results.
am i unhappy wif my results?
am i depressed?
nt rly.
juz abit abit disappointed.
but.
i'm nt happy becoz ppl arnd me are unhappy.
n i feel certain a form of problem.
why some ppl place in so much effort.
n their results suck so much?
when some ppl.
they put in so insignificant amt of effort.
n they can get a better grade?
is this supposed to be fair?
makes me seriously doubt abt the system.
felt real unfair for the ppl.
cant believe it.

u opened a new wound.
bled. hurt. unbearable.
pls.dun let me die of the pain.

the end of the three days.
hmm. everything straightened?
for the time being.
it would be.
subjected to many changes.
coz of many very impt variables.=/
but glad thing.
i managed to seal some of it up.
make me life easier n happier.

or maybe nt?

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stop thinking so much edmund.
u need a break. ;(

it juz appear to be so amazing to me.
i rly dun know if i still know u.
u look like a complete stranger to me.
i no longer have anymore energy to find u.
but unknowingly i still find myself waiting for u.
it is such a paradox.
wad to do.tell me cant u.
































three days.
i said it.
so i may have meant it.
let me mean it.
it shall be the last day soon.
give me the courage.
to let go.
i rly dun think i can.
but i shall try?

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now i finally understand the meaning of monday blues fully.
kena kb-ed by most of the tutors.
argh.
somemore some is nt v big prob.
lol. cant rly think why.
but.. i really dread.
have to listen to it.
but there dun seem to be any other way out.
makes me damn sian for the whole week.
busy busy. wth.
i need a break. =/

listen to me this time ok?=X

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hais. wad a wrecked day.
badly screwed for tmr.
my head hurts alot now.
my world juz obviously spins.><
muz be frm the excessive sunlight today.
agrh. still have stuffs to do.
wad along night ahead.
i really start to dread my life now.

are u still the person i once know?

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hahs. wad a day.
so tired n beat from everything.
both physically n mentally.
so i said everything.
becoz i felt there is nth to be hidden.
is it?
then why did i still consider blurting it out?
hmm. so is it gd or bad?
ok. i cant think now las.
forget it.
going to bed.
tada~!

you still owe me something.

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looking back..
i found out something.
this period of time has been my irrational period.
alot of my irrational acts.
deemed unreasonable.
hah. but it made perfect sense to me when i did it.
but.
i seem to think back after doing it n find myself stupid.
so i actually dun even know wad on earth i'm really typing.

i meant promises to be kept.
but nt now anymore? no.
i stand by this principle strongly.
promises are promises.
keep it n fufil it.
dun break it.

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good friday.
juz another normal friday to me.
nth out of the odinary.
it is juz another normal friday.

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hmmm. today seems to be the last day of school alr.
weird. dun feel like it at all to me.
hahs. juz another weird day of mine.
anyway. today juz got my palm read.
haha. super accurate results.
i have to admit to it totally.
state two impt points here.

first. i spend alot.
have to really agree on it.
i really do spend alot.
even when i'nm earning.
money does nv seem to be enough for me.=/
second. i think alot alot more than others.
is this supposed to be a compliment or waD?
haha. i took it in many ways.
i doO think alot. think deep.
n sometimes too much.

i seem to be picking all the wrong timings all the while.
ironical.
n i hate it.

?nat salohcin wonk uoy od

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hmm. slept for very very long.
no feeling to wake up anyway.
lots happened today..
hmm. nt really to me.
but indirectly did affect me.
coz i wish to help him share his pain.
but i could nt.
u have to face somethings urself.
i can only help u.=/
were things supposed to end up this way only?
hais. it ended though.


















is it tt our friendship is tt hard to keep?
or i'm nt trying?i tried.
i find u to talk. but time juz seems to play a fool.
hahs. played me as the fool.
do i need to find even the correct timing to call someone?
my calls may nt be tt impt anyway.

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hmm. kinda lost my soul today.
v lost in school.
argh. cant do anything properly today la..
>< i need my soul back!!
shall continue with my pile of work to do.
work is neverending. haha.=(

irony.how much should i put in?

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hmm. juz saw this accident on my way home juz now.
was a bang n run incident.
wth.
i seriously suspect the guy tt ran was drunk.
irresponsible idiot larr.
be bold to face it since u drank.
ok. tt is so subjective.

how can i bother when u do nt bother at all?hais.

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argh. wo bian ben lerr.
>< my physics now is like.. ARGH.
cant stop making careless mistakes.
nt like i duno how to do the qn!
is i make super dumb mistakes.
zzz. damn sian diao.
maybe its juz my focus is nt here.
my brain is juz freakingly thinking abt something.
something impt.

the friendship i cherish i treasure n dun wish to lose.

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