guess its time to update.

work is as usual? lol. BORING las. my working life is superb sian. all is abt talking. resumes. telemarketing.>< it kills. but guess things will turn out better. events are packed. my weekends full. for the past weekends. wedding. dinners. all n such. but things always turn out fine. anyway. talking back. went on first assignment wif spas yq n ber ytd. St Jame's Power Station. haha. full of smoke las. =/ zzz. but quite ok. easy. somemore got ppl scandalous!~ haha. anyway. my night life is usually talking wif tan. hahas. he always nv fail to talk to me when i think of talking to him only. lol. brothers' telepathy?! haha. nv mind. gt something to do. more blogging another time!

tada~

Your Birthdate: August 18

You are a cohesive force - able to bring many people together for a common cause.You tend to excel in work situations, but you also facilitate a lot of social gatherings too.Beyond being a good leader, you are good at inspiring others.You also keep your powerful emotions in check - you know when to emote and when to repress. Your strength: Emotional maturity beyond your years Your weakness: Wearing yourself down with too many responsibilities Your power color: Crimson red Your power symbol: Snowflake Your power month: September

Your Five Variable Love Profile

Propensity for Monogamy: Your propensity for monogamy is medium.In general, you prefer to have only one love interest.But it's hard for you to stay devoted for too long!There's too much eye candy to keep you from wandering. Experience Level: Your experience level is high.You've loved, lost, and loved again.You have had a wide range of love experiences.And when the real thing comes along, you know it! Dominance: Your dominance is medium.You tend to be the one with more power.You aren't a total control freak in relationships..But of course you don't mind getting you way! Cynicism: Your cynicism is medium.You'd like to believe in true and everlasting love...But you've definitely been burned enough to know better.You're still an optimist, but you also are a realist. Independence: Your independence is high.You don't need to be in love, and sometimes you don't even want love.Having your own life is very important for you...Even more important than having a relationship.

You Are an Excellent Cook

You're a top cook, but you weren't born that way. It's taken a lot of practice, a lot of experimenting, and a lot of learning.It's likely that you have what it takes to be a top chef, should you have the desire...

Your Deadly Sins

Envy: 100%

Greed: 80%

Lust: 60%

Gluttony: 40%

Sloth: 40%

Wrath: 40%

Pride: 20%

Chance You'll Go to Hell: 54%

You will die at the hands of a jealous lover. How ironic.

Your Scholastic Strength Is Innovating

You are the master of new ideas, techniques, and ways of looking at things.You are talented at structuring thoughts, decision making, clarifying, and making deadlines. You should major in: MarketingPsychologyDesginCognitive Science EconomicsPhotography

You Are Rain

You can be warm and sexy. Or cold and unwelcoming.Either way, you slowly bring out the beauty around you. You are best known for: your touch Your dominant state: changing

What Your Soul Really Looks Like

You are quite expressive and thoughtful. You see the world in a way that others are blind to. You are a very grounded, responsible, and realistic person. People may not want to hear the truth from you, but they're going to get it. You see yourself with pretty objective eyes. How you view yourself is almost exactly how other people view you. Your near future is still unknown, and a little scary. You'll get through wild times - and you'll textually enjoy it. For you, falling in love is all about flirting and feeling playful. You couldn't fall in love with someone who took life too seriously.

You Are An INTP

The Thinker You are analytical and logical - and on a quest to learn everything you can.Smart and complex, you always love a new intellectual challenge.Your biggest pet peeve is people who slow you down with trivial chit chat.A quiet maverick, you tend to ignore rules and authority whenever you feel like it. You would make an excellent mathematician, programmer, or professor.

A friend does not only share the gasoline: he shares memories, crying crisis, experiences. Shares guilt, shares secrets.
A friend does not only lend the surfboard. He lends his word, lends his shoulder, lends time, lends the heat and a jaquet.
A friend does not only suggest a CD. He suggests you take it easy, suggests a job, suggests a country.
A friend does not only drive you to a party. He takes you into his world and is truly interested on knowing yours.
A friend does not only give you the quiz answers. He stands by you during difficult times, he spends New Year's Eve beside you.
A friend does not only go jogging. He walks silently through pain, he comes into the field with you and stands by your side if you fail.

lol. guess i'm juz so emo here.
life esp sucks this days.
work has juz taken over way part of my life.
my freedom is totally robbed.
nt only tt.
its me.
the feeling of unexplainable lonliness.
the chill. the shivers. no one saw.
its slowly tearing me up soon.
i hate it.
but i've no more energy to pick up.
i really wanna let it all out.
end this for me.
juz KILL me.

Early b'dae party for Ms GOH YAN NGEE!haha.

sat had this celebration for this gal. shes gonna be fourteen this wed! LOL. still single n available?! i guess so.=x anyway. had fun then. ;) saw the trio brothers. OMG. grown even taller than me le!!! lol. sian. kena beaten by one sec one kid?! LOL. tt wei hao is so tall can! >< size="5">we rock can!;)

tribute to u people!
kaingee. always ask me for songs!! haha. anyway. its always fun to share our stuff tog! n stop all ur zi lian-ing larr. haha. n dun keep bullying desmond! haha. n i nv keep anything frm u k! is u gt SECREt nv tell me. more like it. haha.
yanngee. this dumb gal arh. nv fail to luff n luff when wif her. always gang wif me against desmond! lol. but lets include desmond in the future! oops. den who we bully? LOL.
desmond. this boy arh. always wif his COOL. haha. dun go jio so many gf la. haha. anyway u're gr8 too. but muz tell me abt ur gf!!! i promise i wun tell ur mum=/ LOL.

tts all!;)

SAKURA!;)

ok. today is so fruitful. haha. as usual i was nt early for work. zzz. slp at 230 like tt. was talkin on msn wif aloysius n zj lo. hahaha. den also araanging my stuff. anyway. work today was extra challenging. i took up telemarketing all in one day. somemore manage to catch a deal alr. ;))) so proud of myself can. another colleague of mine took so long to learn. i tot so hard seh. actually is test of communication skills. =p haha. but have to be careful when doin such. haha. constrains. =/ anyway company dinner today. was at clementi woods dere. SAKURA! haha. double storey buffet somemore. quite zai seh. i ate alot lehh. winner of survival challenge. haha. my colleagues were like saying i come often sakura sure close down. ahahha. not so scary can! haha. ate most of the more authentic food. like unagi, salmon n scallop. nt forgettin all the cold prawns n tiramisu! haha. but nv had oysters n mussels n the sashimi. nt so fresh. picky me.=p anyway ate till full. found myself contented. den came home le. lol. found out working has made me lose so much of my life. working life is kinda boring lo. hehe. but i found another job lo. tution de. hehe. called n they asked me to go down for interview. =)) hope can get it. can last me awhile though. n still gt the event thingy. WOw. i am such a money spinner! haha. n helped my two pigs to outsource for jobs le. duno they wan work nt. bleh.

i needa shop!><

ok. sianZzz dAy.

super sian-ed when i received chris msg today las. class outing cancelled. -.- wth. i took half a day off k! wa lao. waste my time. ZZZ. den decided to ask spas along to je for pool. anyway spas was late. tot she will be early so nv meet her at bugis. or else could have shopped at bugis instead. LOL. sian cans. work is as usual boring las. nth much to say. anyway pool was sucky can. played in a not on form fashion. LOL. anyway. so long nv see yq retard le. hahaha. heard their s20 chalet was sian-ed too. haha. remb back to my best chalet times. s22. SUPER! haha. tts the best. food n fun. all in one. enjoyed loads. i wan another!=p maybe have another one?! lol. was discussing this with gym, suwen. hope can work out?hehe.

anyway. my mood for these days are worse. duno leh. sounds bad. ><

ok. admin work is plain sian.

super annoying when it comes to filing. sucks totally can. the filing system in the office sucks. really. the resumes are all over the place. it took me ages to sort the technician category out. but still gt some left out. ZZZ. accounts also. super annoying can. keep having to file up bits n pieces. makes my life so dumb. the room is also so stinky can. makes me suffocate by staying one more min inside.>< working life is boring n restricted de. somemore so small a company. so small an office still got so loads of office politics. -.- sian can. human politics in sch is bad enuf. now office also. ;( anyway. tmr is gonna be better. i hope so. at least tmr is my half day. =/ n gg out. finally. need to get some stuffs.;) n look at my weekends.
tmr: half day! n go out aft tt!
friday: work-.- but got company dinner! intl buffet seh!;p
sat: GOH YAN NGEE'S bday. day gone.
sun: nt confirmed. =/

i replied u. i cant stop myself.

U: thinking back now.
i realise something.
i really treasured u loads.
my heart cant cheat me.
i totally forgived u.
when i saw ur sms.
although it has nth.
but i still forgived.
i wonder if i'm stupid.
u made me so mad.
wif the mention of him.
i dun care a hoot to esther or freddy.
but him. no way.
i was so mad then.
someone tt i treasures loads.
someone tt i wun give up.
u stabbed me.
the silence was unbearable.
i really suck at getting angry.
Di, cant u be smarter?=/

anyway.i found out something.my temperant changed.loads.

Quote:
会伤心是因为开心过，
会失望是因为希望过，
会遗憾是因为珍惜过。

screwed day.ytd was badly screwed.

first. in the morning. i woke up at 8 when i'm supposed to meet my members at 830 to hand in our I&R. wa lao. chiong-ed all the way dere?! ZZZ. almost died. apologised. but felt guilty. =( super rushed can. den i din bring anything out. so had to go home after the handing in of I&R. but ut was abt 930 when i came out. n i had my family meeting at 11?! Zzz. but still had to go home. so in the ned i had to forgo the meeting. felt guilty. sorry tan.=/ first half of the day screwed like shyt. n rested at home till 2plus b4 decidin to meet ber n spas at lot1. went out of home. rained like shyt. wa sian. n i reached marsiling MRT. the dumb indian dere say wan check my bag!fk seh. think i some terrorist? LOL.fine. i allowed him to check.-.-so dumb can. n i reached lot1 abit late. but ber n spas came even later.-.= so i waited in the lib. n i found a nice book to entertain me. :) later played awhile of pool wif ber n spas. played cut-throat. n i won the most rounds.;)) happy when i play pool. haha. loads of funny stuff happens when play wif spas. OPERATION A? hahaha.=/ hmm. later went to arcade for some fun. n met huan min n others for the bbq. PIG siew is late as usual. waited awhile for all to arrive. den proceeded to warren. the bbq. food was really nt v nice. but really appreciated huan min's effort to plan such a bbq for us. ;) played arnd the pool. had fun pushing ppl down?! hahaha. but heng i din kena.=p the security came n kb lo. den kinda stopped. haha. den played ball for awhile at the court near limbang. lol. played in the dark v xin ku.>< den met this guy called Aloysius. think his name nice seh. bleh. anyway. the bbq is somehow fun la;)

stop the bleeding pls.

ok. my fone decide to go back into a coma. fk seh. the warranty juz decided to end n its giving me so much prob. n guess wad? the first person i decided to tok to suan-ed me. -.- zzz. super isan diao. -.-"

Finally. my Pw cycle ended. in a breeze.

OP today was my best effort. i din cork up. i tried my best. although i could be nervous. but i attempted wif my best effort. i know it. tts why i'm v happy its over. all the rehearsals n such is nth now. my whole pw folder is useless alr. hahaha. anyway i'm also done wif my dumb I&R. did it until lai said EE. hahaa. wif two tries. kinda felt v successful. cheng jiu gan. v hard to see lai so fast accept work de. so happy las. any way PW is OVER. no more of such crappy stuff anymore. happy? maybe so bahh. somethn random to tok abt. both my di managed to do somethn wrong in the OP=/

now i'm seriously trying to find someone to print my dumb I&R for me can. ZzZ. super sian. found two n no +ve response la. fk seh. my printer chose to die on me at this sort of moment. feeling super useless now. no one is willing to help me? lol. juz lazy to ask arnd la. i hate when my printer goes on strike la. i need the rain to wake me up. i needa wake up. i wanna wake up. i should n i will. siew pig juz told me somethn. he has decided to quit as ogl alr. no big rxn frm me when i heard this. i anticipated this b4 he could say out to me. yahh. siew, u may choose to doubt me. but its true. i felt it. but u endured long. =/ i duno why las. juz felt tt responsibility comes into play this time. quitting now is really being rather irrational n irresponsible. but i wun stop him. he wans to concentrate on his studies after seeing his results today. i agree. i saw my results. ACCABB. nt v lousy results. but i fell below my own goals. i have my expectations k. i wan n can do better than this. n i shall do it.

i slp through my whole day at home.
sudden tot of loneliness.
i was struck w/o anyone to tok to?
the helplessness is so unbearable.
the many pieces inside.
no one can see.
no one is able to pick it up for me.
i died inside. long ago.
REVIVE ME.

oh. OP is juz tmr. all of a sudden. i dun look forward to it at all.

shyt sia.i am so lousy can. i dun wan go for OP le la. kinda unprepared?! haha. somemore still have to chiong my dumb I&R. stupid lai even said dun wan read my I&R-.- hais. my speech really v up n down. hope tmr can do well. my memorising is nt fantastic really. i think i suck in fact. haha. but mr lai keep saying i will do v well. zzz. i wan to do well of course. who wun? lol. n finally i felt v successful. finally gt one outside sch hours pw meeting. the previous few such meetings all failed de. hais. kinda got chen jiu gan today.=) ok. i needa go for more practices. hope i can do well=/

JIAYOUS. PIG DI! haha. u have OP tmr too. =)

wad a long n sucky day.

woke up late today. when i slp real early ytd. at 12 i went to bed alr. but i admit tt i din slp well. keep waking up las.zzz. n today i was late for work. -.-dumb me. late 20 mins somemore. nv mind. i usually leave late. so nt tt bad. n i slp on the train. standing somemore. juz dozed off. like some pig. =/ n i did work in a super tired form. juz couldn't focus at all. nt tired. i wun die w/o slp de. but juz v disturbed. no idea why. juz felt so. cant pinpoint wads wrong at all. my sixth sense juz decide to act up out of the blue. but i am v certain somethn round me is v wrong or is going to be v wrong. having no idea abt it this time. feel damn helpless. hais. ate one meal only. n early too. sians. den i had alot of pressure piled on me all of a sudden. dunno wad to say. sudden feeling like my fate is sealed. haha. dumb. one whole paragraph abt feelings. only ppl tt walk in will understand. ;(

all to best to ppl having OP tmr. ESP my Di ! =)) JIAYOUS^^

Blue; =[Sorry Seems To Be The Hardest Word]=

What I got to do to make you love me?
What I got to do to be heard?
What do I do when lightning strikes me?
What have I got to do?
What have I got to do?
When sorry seems to be the hardest word.

NUGGETS!!=/(wif pig siew's disgusting bite?!)

hmm. wad a day?!

i splt at 5 n woke up at 630?tok wif tan till 4plus..hahaa.until he ps me again. lol. but i'm still alive n kicking.=/amazing. but even when i woke up at 630, i was still late for OP rehearsal. darn. i reached last. but heng lai nv kb me arh. op is sucky. as usual, i think pw is nt my subject. nv mind las. all ended fast. chop chop b4 12. juz nice in time to meet siew.=/ we ate at the coffeeshop near sch. lucky nv say go market eat.=S den it rained-.- super lousy weather. we walked to take bus to chinese garden lo. n my class ppl even saw me on the bus. LOL. sharp seh. like CCTV. hahaha. crap. anyway siew managed to slp on another lady's shoulder on the train agin. haha. poor lady=/ n we went for cine to play pool =pp pool is nv less fun. N i won siew all.=)) jia yous la PIG! but my skills still rusty.=( ltr walked to taka for ice cream. n i kena exploited for mint choco.><< pig="/but">pig siew in his desperation gt an idea. he used my membership to redeem points.-.- exploit me again. ><>nugget. OMG. looks alot can. but we both conquered it. LOL. sounds like some amazing feat.=p den argued along the way to mrt on wad line to take. n i lost again-.- exploited.>< nv mind. enjoyable trip las.

你最近不说话 怎么了 为什么
是不是有什么事让你不快乐
听说你最近很孤单 有点乱 有点慌
可是我却不能够在你的身旁

你想要的 我却不能够给你我全部
我能给的 却又不是你想要拥有的
我们不适合 也不想认输
好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭

常解释这样的一切都只是开始
我觉得是所有的一切早已就结束
不想再约束不要再痛苦
下一次会有更好的情路

你最近不说话 怎么了 为什么
是不是有什么事让你不快乐
听说你最近很孤单 有点乱 有点慌
可是我却不能够在你的身旁

你想要的 我却不能够给你我全部
我能给的 却又不是你想要拥有的
我们不适合 也不想认输
好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭

常解释这样的一切都只是开始
我觉得是所有的一切早已就结束
不想再约束不要再痛苦
下一次会有更好的情路

爱我却不能够 给你我全部
我能给的 却又不是你想要拥有的
我们不适合 也不想认输
好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭

你常解释这样的一切都只是开始
我觉得是所有的一切早就结束
不想再约束不要再痛苦
下一次会有更好的情路
这一次我们都能很幸福

it rang till it stopped.maybe its juz the signal for me to shut the fcuk up.

or maybe its juz my dumbness?

u stabbed deep in this time.it will hurt more than she does.

U MADE ME SEEM LIKE A FOOL.
after all. its juz my wishful thinking tt we're such gr8 friends.
u stabbed me. i felt it.
but u may nt know. haha. how cynical.

Down N Out.

having a bad headcahe for the whole damn day. spent my day wif my bed. n doin nth. fk seh. i'm supposed to do my I&R today. but wth. i wasted all my time. guess its gonna be postponed to tmr le. fk PW. its the last subject i can like. if i'm MOE. i will juz scrape it? i really think so. but tt wun come true anyway. this is juz the time i juz woke up frm my bed. damn tired still. v gong[hokkien]. anyway. i juz dun wish to recover. all of a sudden tot of being sick like tt forever. depriving me of energy to go think. my head juz hurts la. think i'm really goin crazy. ytd i even asked siew such a qn. i really hate myself for tt. but its over. n siew gave me an ans?! LOL. anyway. tan: muz take care.=/get well soon.

i really wanna help u walk out.
but if u're nt telling me anything.
i cant help. i'm sorry.

One of My DUMB Quotes again: If U nv Learn To LOSE, U Will nv Understand the Satisfaction Of VICTORY. ;)

ok. here i am to update.

ytd. work was juz as normal. full of filing to do. the piles n piles of resume. tiring to look at can. see long will get real dizzy. n its a big headache doin the sorting.but i sure gonna survive it. hehe. for the sake of $$! n the ppl dere all v nice las. ask me abt studies stuff n even got one lady also alumni of JJ=p they even bothered to wish me this poor jc student gd luck for chinese As. haha. kinda ok wif the nevironment dere. kinda fit in nt that badly as expected. hope will have better days ahead! ahha. buden soo tired when reach home can. din even touch much on my poor chinese la. juz tot of slping early. buden.. siew called me. n started bombarding me for meanings. haha. good sia. refreshed my memory as i explained stuffs to him also. nt forgettin tan las. he also v no mood study. but i tried explaining some stuffs to him la. hope its helpful? lol. din really seem to be. sians. sry la tan. coz i rly v tired. den decided to hang up de.=/

anyway. today was horrible. i woke up wif a super headache. 39degrees fever. my mama actually din wan me go de. but i insisted. its As can. even if i dying also will drag go take the ppr de. i wun miss exams. esp such a major one. found out i'm soo weak during the paper. no one took notice la. but i was shivering all the way through ppr2. like some lousy pok las. sian-ed. somemore the invigilators darn draggy. i shivering like mad le still dun wan say can go. fk seh. ok. met tan n siew in the canteen. den walked outta sch tog. n siew decided to ps us at the busstop.me n tan boarded 198 w/o any purpose anyway. den went to jec for long john wif tan. dunno why lehs. seems like everytime me n tan will be long john de. ahha. like habit sia. den we took quite a while at the platform decidin on whr to go. finally went to bishan?! haha. v long nv go j8 le lo. so juz went dere n we walked rounds n rounds. for no purpose?! unless... hmm. SECRET! haha. den actually wanted to go home le. buden tan say wan go marina. so dere we go again. din do much dere also. walked around suntec. tok cock las. den walked in marina n had food at cavana.o.O oh.. forgot somethn. say Boon at marina. kinda talked awhile wif him? haha. suan-ed him as usual.=p den we decided on goin home. n tan this time so good. took red line wif me=) haha. kinda end of the journey? lol. enjoyed myself alot wif tan las. although u may be quiet at times. but its ok. u're one gr8 di tt will pei me tok cock alot. haha. dun 4get all abt ******.=/ so bad of me. =( n stop being sad la. get over it soon n cheer up!=DD

Hope i can do WELL for Chinese As this time. oh pls!=)

i'm back frm work!! yeah! after first day of work.><

hais. first day of work n i so tired. haha. was tokin wif tan over the fone mahh. ok. but regained my energy pretty quickly. dun wan to die frm first day of work. =/ anyway. i was really lost when i first stepped into office las. OMg. so damn lost can. but thank goodness the ppl dere all v friendly can. heng sia. or else i might juz become an extra stone monument in the office. they like so friendly, ask me get drinks, ask me get snacks, ask me cold or not. make me so suprised. =p nv the less. it was wonderful a working experience this time i suppose. did filing mostly in the office. got went out on task for awhile to two companies. kinda gained lots of experience. haha. lots of food dere also. one hour lunch break seh. good welfare?! LOL.

Someone Say: I may think we're so close but not nessesarily true. Coz Wad I Think May Not Be Wad U Think.

hais. super stony mood for the day.

ytd was maths lec. buden i woke up late. woke up at the time when the dumb lec starts. so decided nt to go le. wun make a diff anyway. since the lec is two hours. n i take one hour to travel. reach dere only have one hour of lesson. somemore ytd the lec end in 1.5 hours. heng sia. or else waste my time n money.=/ in the end zuo bo at home? nt really. i attempted to do hols assignment.. but failed to do so.=(

talk abt today den. had econs lec early in the morning. so damn dumb can. i woke up earlier than b4 n juz for the dumb season ticket for my dad.ZzZ. make me go queue for half an hour for it.-.-waste my time. n reached sch juz on time. even though i still waited for edwin[asshole] at bukit batok dere. econs is as boring as usual las. but thank goodness mrho da fa ci bei today. changed the lec frm 3 to 2 hours only. n juz nice i made it for my family meeting[F2&5]. ok. n now i finally saw wad ppl meant by experience gap. the organisation sucks quite alot to me. is random choice. n i got into scdc=p no complains bout tt. buden should actually put more experienced ones in coms like scdc for better results? scdc need more ppl. den better. =X to be serious. i miss f1's structure more. better?! i think so la. but can be better. nv mind. 4get bout tt.
n i decided to drop h3 chem. dunno whether it is a dumb decision nt. kinda considered loads of factors too. but dunno why. suddenly tot tt if i'm nt ogl, i more possible cope wif h3. nv mind las. i alr tore the form. no more chances for regrets.=(

take it as i din ask u anything. i'm juz being overly concerned. its my fault.
juz kill me den

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